When I see Myself

"I'll be fine by myself, but if you all insist...fine..." I answered "Just remember your manners."

"Right. Because you know we WANNA be paralyzed like that again...right?" RaXi answered rolling her eyes. "Come on Triskix...fool me once, u know?"

We laughed slightly, but I couldn't help but feel a pain from it. The scars the Leader had branded me with were starting to burn for some reason....and it wasn't a good burn either....

"What do you mean paralyzed?" Nyx asked.

She wasn't there to see what he had done..... I thought to myself. None of them should have seen that....

RaXi put on somewhat of a fake smile and rubbed the back of her head. I felt the extreme need to roll my eyes and play it off, but I knew neither RaXi nor Lexian would play it off.....

"Yeah...see...Lex and I kinda got snippy with the boss...and....he totally paralyzed us...couldn't speak at all. So...careful what you say alright?"

IF that was the extent of his power I would have never chose to serve him.... I thought to myself.

"How could he?! He's supposed to be our Leader..." Nyx asked interrupting my thoughts.

"Yeah well...any trash you gotta say...do it BEHIND his back alright." RaXi joked back.

"Even that won't work..." I mumbled.....In truth the Leader could see everything I could....he could rip though my memories if he chose...he could even listen in on conversations where I was present....

As we reached the central tower and started ascending it's steps, a table came flying at me. I sighed and destroyed it. I felt the Leader's rage run though my head and sighed. Akane.....

"Figures it was her." I mumbled. "She needs to learn how to control that temper of hers...this is why I say she's not a proper Nobody..."

But really.....she wasn't ever going to be a proper nobody...and that was what irritated me the most...

"But wait Triskix..." RaXi asked "How is it that she speaks with the Leader? I mean...we're supposed to be banned from the Central Tower...so why is she speaking with him so casually?"

I gave RaXi a sideways glance and glared at the wall behind her. What was Akane doing in the Central tower? That dam woman...She was going to be the first of the Leader's kills if this kept up....

"She thinks she matters more than others," I answered, "But the truth is....none of us matter because right now...we don't exist......."

"Triskix I think we've already had this discussion," RaXi answered.

I rolled my eyes, but a voice cut me off.

"Triskix. Why have you brought them here?" the Leader's sharp voice said coldly.

"They asked, and if I didn't I have a feeling my order would be threatened," I answered stepping forwards.

The Leader's outline was easy to see in the large white chair. His hood was up as always. I sighed and felt the burning rage running though my very being. He was irritated as it was but Akane's outburst, and I had only served to make it worse. I sighed and waited for it to be over.

Lexian, Nyx, and Lexian gave me a pained look, but I tried to make it seem that it was merely a minor pain. When the feeling subsided I relaxed.

"So then," the Leader started with a calmer frame of mind, "Lets see what is of interest...."

I felt the sudden push into my mind. He was trying to nearly rip every thought straight out of my head. I grabbed the wall to keep me upright. It was exhausting having someone in my head, and as always I felt the need to recoil and set the entire place on fire....but I didn't....I relaxed and started closing the doors in my mind. I locked RaXi's secret away as best I could, but I felt him ripping at the door.

"Why are you hiding something from me Triskix?" the Leader asked sharply out loud.

"Maybe he doesn't want yo give you every single blasting detail!" Lexian shot back, "You have no right to his mind anyways!"

"Triskix is mine," the Leader answered, "Every memory is mine. Every side though...Every last bit of information he ever would even bring into his consciousness is mine."

"Triskix is no one's!" RaXi shot back.

"You are hurting him stop it!" Nyx yelled, "It was my fault! I was the one who ran off! Don't let you anger off on the wrong nobody!"

"It is not out for discussion and debate and if three don't stay quiet I will simply have my lesser nobodies escort you out," the Leader answered.

A silence ran through the room. I didn't directly see, but the tension in the air screamed that they were ready to attack him......

"I'm fine," I answered, "Sorry Leader those are some dead memories that someone else has hid away....if you calm down and look at this you will understand." I pushed a picture of Marlex in front of the door. It seemed to subdue him, and he left my mind.

"So they are back," the Leader said sharply, "That is all I needed. Fine. You three" he motioned to Nyx, RaXi, and Lexian, "Don't think that coming here is a privilege now. Under these circumstances I will acquiesce, but never again...Triskix if you see Akane any time soon tell her that if she ever talks to me so childishly again that I will have you turn her to ash and dust and throw her to the wind. I have taken this childless long enough."

"Fine," I answered my hand moved up to my shoulder where one of the scars was irritating me.

I grabbed all three by the shoulder and pushed them straight out of the tower and down the steps. They were all in protest, but I had to get them away. This was what I had feared would happen, and I wanted the away as quickly as possible. When we reached the bottom of the staris, I continued to push them into the main hall. Once there, we were safe. I sighed....suddenly my stomach growled.

Nyx, Lexian, and RaXi looked at me. I laughed.

"Looks like all the excitement has run into my stomach heh," I said.

There was an awkward silence after that.

"Anyways I'm going to go get something to eat and then take a nap. Do what you wish just don't break anything or mess with my order," I said as happily as I could.

I turned and opened a portal into the kitchen. No one was in there except Xyris who seemed to be cooking quite a large amout of food as always. She gave me a terrified look, but I walked in and grabbed a plate from the rack. I put a stack of flap jacks that had been sitting out on my plate.

"Oh those were for brea-" Xyris started.

"And they were left out and not put away. Not very orderly. Would you like to head a lecture or would you like to let me eat and act like you never saw me?" I asked.

Xyris became quiet and I took the plate out of the kitchen and upstairs to my room.

End