I don't know what else there is to say or do. Once we got back, all of us split up. I wasn't even sure who was still in the castle and who wasn't. I really didn't know what to do. Today just seemed like another failed mission just like last time.
"You're pathetic. First mission and you blow it," Saix said.
"He's new and just a kid. no wonder," Marluxia said.
I heard that the first time I was given a mission to Halloween Town and blew it right there. I was ashamed of myself. I growled to myself and ran into my room and locked it. "I blew it. Xemnas gave me a chance to prove I wasn't weak but I couldn't even eliminate that Sora."
I was angry at myself apparently and because of that... I let my emotions get the best of me and I froze everything within my room. I was being a brat. A stupid brat, but after I failed the first mission I was ever put on, you should get why it lead up to this. Maybe you do, maybe you don't. Either way, my actions were cowardly. I know that, so don't tell me.
I stayed in my room and didn't move, nor did I come out. Xemnas tried to talk but realized it was useless and gave up. I stayed in the room up until every organization member was killed. I was unaware of their deaths too, because I stayed in that room.
Then I left after I found out. And I went back to Halloween Town, since it was the only place I seemed to get along with people/monsters. I stayed there for years until I heard a rumor about the castle being inhabited and then I checked it out.
So now I'm here. In my room again... And alone
-Xait
