My wrists were raw and my voice gone. I dangled limply in the darkness...for my eyes remained blind to the world around me. I had been in a state of hysteria and panic for so long it had exhausted my body completely. A stupid move...but my underlying fear and instinct had taken over. I think...if I had the energy left...I would still be struggling...even against the warnings in my mind. Yet the bit of sanity left in me was slowly planning for my rescue. I was giving off a faint amount of my energy...just enough for someone like Nyx to sense. She was my only hope...Saix had only trained the two of us to sense such things. He'd always thought there'd be a time when we needed each other...even though I denied assistance in all shapes and forms back then. I laughed...I was always so stubborn and solitary. Never wanting to lean on ANYONE for help. Even now...my pride worried me...it didn't want any of them to see me in such a horrid state. One part because of the example I wished to show...and the other because of HER.
She was slowly rising to the surface...wanting out...wanting to be free...wanting to kill. I easily suppressed her in normal circumstances...but now...now that I had lost most of my sanity...now that I had allowed myself to use up so much energy...her bonds were too loose. Once the chains suppressing my powers were released...she would wreak havoc. And I feared that more than anything. No one would be safe then...be they ally or foe.
I started to drift into a world of unrest. A hovering world where you were neither sleeping...yet you were too unaware and hazy to actually be awake.
"They mustn't venture there..." A voice whispered in the dark. "It is forbidden...against all laws! FORBIDDEN!"
"Silence..." I begged...it continually echoed the same thing over and over.
"FORBIDDEN! FORBIDDEN! STAY AWAY...STOP THERE!"
"Stop it...leave me be..." I spoke out. "Silence...end this...kill me...just kill me..."
I gasped. Those had been Triskix's words. When he had cried to the darkness. In so much pain...
"Triskix..." I mumbled. "Can't give up...I have to live...have to...free them..."
"No you don't." The voice called back. "The only one you have to worry about is yourself. Leave them to their fate...it is none of your business..."
"None of my...?"
"RaXi...you must really care about them...I wish you happiness..." Ari's voice interrupted now....I was really losing it.
"I'm so happy I met you...Don't ever leave my side alright...I swear I'll always protect you. Because your life DOES matter...you Do EXIST RaXi...never let anyone tell you different..." Vincent...
"I'll save you both..." I mumbled. A drop of water slid down my face...it was only sweat...but at that moment it felt like tears.
I had to be strong...had to hold on...even though it felt like I was falling apart every second I remained in this place. How disgraceful I must look...
I continued to hover between sleep and awake. Between life and death it seemed...just waiting...waiting for them to come...with no guarantees they would even find my faint signal.
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The Guard stepped up next to the door. "Hey...listen to this..." He called out to the other guard. They pressed their ears to the door.
"Forbidden! STAY AWAY!" RaXi's voice was echoing. "Death! Despair! THE END OF EVERYTHING! NO RETURN!! FORBIDDEN!"
"Damn...she's losing it...heh." They laughed. "Think any of that means anything?"
"No way...she's probably trying to scare us...or she can't handle confinement. Too bad we're the poor suckers stuck guarding her. It's pathetic...I mean...when the heck are those Zero guys gonna show up?"
"Who knows. But man...I'm SO BORED."
"Yeah." The other agreed and they laughed.
~RaXi
