I could feel Xemmsur helping me into the portal she made, I didn’t want to be a burden, but I knew that I needed the help. At every movement we made I could feel the ice inside my blood cut into the veins, and the muscles in my left shoulder tear. Everything thing seemed so far away and wispy, like a far off dream.
Once we made it threw the portal I could feel the cold linoleum floor of the infirmary. I managed to whisper out RaXi’s name, but I don’t think anyone heard me. I had to know if she was all right. She’s been like a big sister to me ever since I came to the castle, and I think Xemmsur feels the same way.
I couldn’t rest until I knew that she would be okay, but I was so tired. Then a scream was heard threw out the castle and it drew me out of my trance like state. I could feel that RaXi was here… and she felt so confused. Xemmsur and someone else set me on a bed, ‘You can’t lie down now!’ my head screamed.
“I’m… fine. Please where’s RaXi?” I felt my cold lips move, but it didn’t sound like me. Everything seemed like it echoed, like I was still in that cave.
Trying to sit up I could hear someone yelling at me to lie back down but I paid him or her no heed. That is until I cried out when I hit my shoulder on something trying to get up.
‘RaXi,’ I tried reaching out to her, in my mind, to help calm her down even though we were so far away.
‘RaXi, I’m. Fine. Everything will be okay, I promise.’ I tried making my voice sound stronger to my oldest friend to try and help.
I was my fault I let her get that far gone, I should have noticed that she was in trouble, felt it or… or something! Because of that and that battle I got Xemmsur tied up in this too. I remember… someone saying something along the lines that the Leader knew of this. He… he knew that she didn’t come back and it was my fault that I didn’t find out. I wanted him dead worst then I ever wanted Xemnas dead, ‘He will pay. You will pay.’
All a sudden memories of the battle came to life in my head, and every detail was there. Then from years ago, repressed memories began to replayed in my head backwards from Saix’s death to the last time Dark RaXi came out. Cringing I tried curling up in a ball, but my body wouldn’t let me it hurt too much. It was if someone took over my head, my memories, and was using them against me. The leaders face came into view then he laughed.
Then I saw RaXi’s face, but it wasn’t the dark side, calming me. In the distance I could hear some people talking but I couldn’t tell who was there.
“RaXi… I’m… I’m sorry.”
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~Nyx
