It had only been a routine training mission. Out in the field...in a real situation...why had it gone so terribly wrong? Why couldn't I control myself...yet again? Something had set me off...what had it been? I couldn't even remember anymore...I only knew of what followed... These were the thoughts my mind drifted to...a result of the current situation.
-The surrounding buildings plummeted to the ground, smoke rose from the debris and fires broke out all around. The air was heavy with a thick fog that escaped the ice crystallizing on the ground. The ice wouldn't melt...even with the fire burning directly on top of it. Even plants and trees lay shredded and destroyed...yet these were not the only debris that littered the area. There were bodies everywhere...so many casualties...innumerable. It seemed the WHOLE CITY had been destroyed...it looked like the result of a bombing...or even a massive natural disaster. Yet what stood in the center of it all...was a single child. Covered in blood and smiling in the face of the destruction.
"What are you doing RaXi...this isn't like you!!" Another child's voice rang out...she was already heaving and bloody as well. "These people were..."
"In my way..." The girl finished. "Just like you are!"
They launched into fierce combat.
"I'll stop you RaXi! I can't let you do this!!" The younger girl screamed.
"Mind your own business Nyx! If you want to stop me...then die!" RaXi shouted back.
The sun began to set...yet it wasn't only the crimson glow from it's rays that caused the children to appear a bright red hue. Nyx lay on the ground...so badly bloodied it was hard to tell if she were even alive...RaXi smiled at her victory...yet there was a tug at her psyche. She prepared the final blow...the blow that would make her opponent unrecognizable...so thoroughly defeated they could NEVER return to challenge her. Raising her sword with a single hand it came down quickly, was parried and knocked away.
"That's enough RAXI!" A man's voice boomed.
"Saix! You..." RaXi muttered. She flew at him with full force. He easily dodged her reckless and unplanned attacks. "I'll KILL YOU!"
He was angry. Angry he hadn't been there to prevent this. He swung at her in an attempt to knock her out...but was shocked when she dodged...in turn counter-attacking with a small dagger of ice in her grip. He moved his face just in time...but she had still connected...reopening half of his old scar. Before even landing on the ground, she cast three more at him...one cutting open the remainder of the scar. A freshly cut X now on his face. The blood streamed down slowly, yet he ignored it.
She laughed loudly at the match...jumped into the air and began to form a large attack...it was ice and yet...it was composed of darkness...the deepest darkness, of the very abyss. Saix jumped back and began to growl as he took HIS OWN Berserker form. RaXi cast the attack at him...sure it would work. Yet somehow he cut through it completely...and nullified it. Coming out the other side of the attack he cut her and she cascaded to the ground.
Clasping at the fresh wound in her stomach she screamed as she fought to remain in control. The small tug had become an all out battle...and finally....after several minutes the marks on her face disappeared and the blue glow in her eyes as well. Now the girl sat stunned beyond belief...
"This...she...no...I...." She stuttered.
"RaXi. Control yourself." Saix ordered coming up to her. "Do not lose yourself again!"
"So much blood..." She continued then screamed...so loudly it seemed to pierce even the heavens...and then...she collapsed.
"Is she even alive?"
"She should be dead by all rights...I don't know HOW she managed to keep from fading..."
"Nyx has a very strong will. She'll be fine...just do your best to seal all the wounds." Saix spoke.
I was in a daze as I lie in the infirmary listening...they were talking about Nyx's condition. I didn't realize it until a little later that it was MY DOING. As I stood up and snuck out...all the other apprentices stared at me with looks of fear. I didn't realize it then...why they looked at me that way. Why they all FEARED me...I didn't ever want to be looked at like that again. I had only found out that it was I who had injured Nyx...through overhearing their banter in the halls a couple of days later...
"She acts all innocent and in control...but look what she did! She almost killed Nyx...who knows which one of us is next!" Sarixen spouted.
"You better be careful Xeros...every time she threatens you about following Marluxia...you should take her seriously!" Erixa warned him.
"I don't think she means it...she really just idolizes Marluxia..." Xeros responded drolly.
"Yeah...what are you guys trying to do huh? Are you calling RaXi some kind of murderer?? There's an explanation...besides...she's been here longer than all of us. I don't think she MEANT to do that." Marlex conveyed.
"Chh...I bet Nyx would disagree. After all...she's the one lying in the infirmary near-death all thanks to RAXI'S ATTACK!" Deidrix chimed in.
I sat against the wall in shock...I had done it....I had almost killed Nyx because I lost control. Just like that time with Marluxia...only this time...I had killed so many people...
Flames shot up around the corner scattering the group. "KNOCK IT OFF YOU GUYS! What are you trying to do? Cause a bunch of Chaos?!" That voice...it was Triskix.
"Watch it Triskix! What the heck?!" Marlex shouted and took off.
"RaXi? You heard them didn't you?" Lexian asked. How had he snuck up on me?
I jumped away from the wall. I didn't know what to do or say...I knew that the three of them were really close. Lexian and even Triskix probably hated me now...they all hated me...I couldn't face them...or Nyx EVER! "I'M SORRY!" I screamed and took off.
I didn't face them for weeks after the whole ordeal. I locked myself in Marluxia's closet and didn't come out once...not until he begged me to resume training. He managed to convince me by insisting I harness control of my other half...that I do it for him...his peace of mind.
Yet nothing was ever harder than returning to training with Saix. Not only had I attacked him...but Nyx was there...that was perhaps the only day I felt fear...
Enough of all that...you've more important matters to think on now. I deliberated within my mind. Though my body was asleep, my mind was deep in thought....running over my plans...on permanent repeat. Trying to figure out just HOW I would act on them...
~RaXi
