Tanex left and I sighed. There was something extremely fuzzy in the back of my mind and I waited for it to clear.
"So, uh..." RaXi began. I turned my head just a bit. I couldn't hear what she was saying though. All that ran through my mind was the speck of thought that had come from the Leader right before Tanex had cut the ties.....an almost feral feeling.....I couldn't explain it. I started talking before I realized it
"Tanex...he says HE knows how to bring the XIII back...but if that's true...then just what am I-" I felt the words slip and fell into silence. I had said a lot more than intended.
"I'm sure you did what you thought was right." RaXi started. "At the time."
"What are you getting at RaXi?" I nearly shot back.
"Triskix." RaXi started. "Back then...you were alone...fighting a battle MUCH BIGGER than yourself. But now, you aren't alone. WE are with you now...you don't need him. You don't need Xraktos anymore!"
"I made a PACT RaXi!" I nearly shouted back.
"I don't CARE! It's NONE OF HIS BUSINESS!" RaXi answered. "So what...you made a Pact...Break it! You shouldn't have to SUFFER like this Triskix! I CAN'T STAND WATCHING YOU GO THROUGH HELL!!"
I didn't move. RaXi.......would never understand the measure.....of the pact.
"You," I started. "Have never made a pact RaXi. You have never bound your life to anything. You're not that kind of person. You've never hanged yourself with your own hand. I HAVE! I HAVE PERSONALLY RIPPED MY OWN SHOULDER MUSCLE OUT! I HAVE KILLED MORE PEOPLE THAN I CARE TO TELL! I HAVE DONE THINGS I WOULD NEVER AND SHOULD NEVER HAVE DONE! And for what? For someone to tell me I'm taking the hard road? For someone to say that there is an easy way out?..........................................." I felt my voice crack and fell silent.
RaXi was looking at me stunned. It was in these moments that I knew my eyes were blood red. A few embers were forming on the floor. I took a breath in.
"Did you ever wonder why the Queen of Hearts called me Acy?" I started feeling my lips curl a bit. RaXi stared at me. "It was never a term of endearment. When.....Xraktos had me first make contact with the Queen, she had all her cards try to end me right then and there. And yet...."
I stopped for a moment.
"I destroyed them all. Instantly. Without retribution. I would have ended her as well if it hadn't been that I was told not to.......the title 'Acy' came because that is the chaos's card. An ace can be a 1 or 11. It can chose it's own fate in this way. And I already chose my fate."
RaXi stared at me. I stared back with a death stare.
"A Pact is a charter between two people," I continued. "It is a conscientious between two parties for a mutual cause. And until that cause is finished, the parties are bound. If I die, Xraktos will as well. And vice versa. Xraktos extends his power over me, but I can do the same."
I felt myself smiled harshly....maliciously.
"And until that pact is finished, it will not be resolved. But mark my words RaXi," I felt my eyes lighten and then darken. "When the pact is over......I will explain personally to Xraktos....why I am a shinigami. And then I will bring back the order. The true order."
Without him in my head......I felt different. I smirked, but RaXi looked back stunned. I turned my head sideways and forced myself off the bed.
"Need to find Tanex now don't we?" I said starting to walk away.
Leader
I took a harsh breath in. Triskix’s mind had seemed to slip through my fingers in a split second and no matter what I tried it was out of reach. I felt the sting of irrigation run through me. I formed my whip and slashed it across the walls of my tower. A hole was left. I took a sharp irritated breath in and calmed down.
I cocked my head towards the hole and the bricks began to rebuild themselves. I paced my tower until I was on the brink of insanity again. I wanted to inflict Triskix with as much pain as possible without killing him, but without the ability to see into his mind…I wouldn’t know when to stop.
My anger moves back to Xerebus. Just what was he planning? And so close to the time that I would bring back Martel……it floored me that he would even think to move at a time like this…when I held all the cards. I was the one who would say check mate…….I was the one that would end this once and for all. I was. I was.
The chaos of my mind
Could pass as sane
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Soji: <__< Triskix.......damn.........
Triskix: T_T.........................................
