If only I could bleed
Just enough
To pass out
If only I could drag this razor
Hard enough
To open the door
If only I could stop these tears
Long enough
To lay still
If only you could lay with me
Maybe I wouldn't cry so long
If only I could hold you close
Maybe I wouldn’t shake so hard
If only I could clasp your hand
Maybe mine would relinquish this blade
If only
If only
If only
If only this mattered
The tears
The scars
If only it mattered
In the slightest bit
Of a million things I’m unsure of
One thing I know
Is that
This
Will
Mean
Nothing
I cower from these thoughts
That continually haunts my heart
Impossible to get away
When I’m never let alone
I flee into the dark
Into unconscious thought
Bet even then I can’t escape
My dreams have turned against me
I used to dream of better times
Of things yet to come
Now my dreams are consumed only by
What has already passed?
Finally I understand
The anguish of waking
If it were up to me
Never would I wake
This is by far less painful
Than walking in the sun
A burning reminder
Of beautiful memories
Memories that kill
Memories that still feel alive
I pray this isn’t wishful thinking
That this is more than false hope
But deep inside I can’t shake the feeling
I’ve lost what I hold dear
Don't disturb
The Beast
The temporary hole
In my head blown all over
The walls
Staineed red with the blood of my
Love but not yet dead
Fond thoughts
Die without
Distraction from
These broken memories
Sharp clear deadly
Tainted by this
Untimely end
My love
My dear
But now, no longer
Will I
Defy my hearts
One desire
In the night in my mind
Paralyzed
Broken down trapped in my mind
Left behind, brushed aside
We push and we pull and we fall
And we break apart
Self-destructive dance that never
Will end if I don’t
Give up on my
bleeding heart
My love
My dear
But no longer
Will I
Defy my hearts
One desire
My love
My dear
But no
Longer
theyre there for you no matter
what,they never leave you behind
and theyll always love you
friends are a thing that you should
charish and a thing you should hold close
to you
when you fall theyre there to
pick you up,when youre alone and sad
they help you bounce back
Friends are like family,friends are
a blessing,and friends are something that
you shouldn't take for granted
When you need a hand theyll help you
and if you need a savior theyll save oyu from
youre problems,the most important thing
about is that theyll never let you go...
This poem is dedicated to all of my friends on theotaku!!!thank you all for helping me when i needed you guys most!!!and i lluv u all!!!!!
His name was Erik Hernandez. A life full of people, and friends. But for every friend he made, a new enemy he acquired.He was the one I loved.
Three bullets caught to his chest,
With the last dieing breathe comes a request
"Promise me that when your face meets mine in heaven, in my arms you'll be"
Hot tears fall on my love's face and clean his blood, hoping he'll see me.
A smile that lingered, to someone else could have been a grin of pure glee
But reality brought me back to Earth, and I held him close to me.
And I felt the life seep out of him,his hand grow limp and cold.
Rushed to the hospital,he gave me a note, that carefully I unfold
"My angel, you were the thing that kept me going, even when my sky was darker than jet black. I know that you might think that I never said this enough, but I love you, and always will. One day, the time will come when I'm taken away from you, and I now it IS selfish, but baby, when that day comes, please, always remember me. In my dresser, i have a picture of us, and i want you to always cherish it. Your beautiful, and you'll fall for someone else. But keep this picture." With love, forever yours, Erik Hernandez"
A new batch of silent tears fall from m eyes, but this time it's of love.
Days later, I stare out the window, my thoughts are only of him.
out side my window is a PURE WHITE DOVE
I stare at the picture that was given to me, and i read it again.
I felt good, totally regenerated, i have forgiven myself for being alive,
while he is not. But as i type this, i have his love and strength in me.
And forever that way, shall I be
