I cower from these thoughts
That continually haunts my heart
Impossible to get away
When I’m never let alone
I flee into the dark
Into unconscious thought
Bet even then I can’t escape
My dreams have turned against me
I used to dream of better times
Of things yet to come
Now my dreams are consumed only by
What has already passed?
Finally I understand
The anguish of waking
If it were up to me
Never would I wake
This is by far less painful
Than walking in the sun
A burning reminder
Of beautiful memories
Memories that kill
Memories that still feel alive
I pray this isn’t wishful thinking
That this is more than false hope
But deep inside I can’t shake the feeling
I’ve lost what I hold dear