If only I could bleed
Just enough
To pass out
If only I could drag this razor
Hard enough
To open the door
If only I could stop these tears
Long enough
To lay still
If only you could lay with me
Maybe I wouldn't cry so long
If only I could hold you close
Maybe I wouldn’t shake so hard
If only I could clasp your hand
Maybe mine would relinquish this blade
If only
If only
If only
If only this mattered
The tears
The scars
If only it mattered
In the slightest bit
Of a million things I’m unsure of
One thing I know
Is that
This
Will
Mean
Nothing