How is everyone? Sorry again to those birthdays I missed! I still sent a pm though! I just read that the chat on the Otaku is down because the company is no longer making them. What a downer! I hope they find a new one soon! We went to petco yesterday and got ourselves a beta fish! He is beautiful! When we were cashing out the cashier (when I went to get the beta water), asked what we were going to name it and my mom told her we don't name fish. She asked why and my sister goes without missing a beat "decoration, we can name him decoration.) My mom laughed so hard. Here is a picture. :image
I have noticed that no one uses the community chat anymore...
. This site used to be such a busy place!! I hope we all get together some time and chat!!
~Outlawedgirl~
It's your favorite otaku! How is everyone tonight? Great? That's great! There hasn't been much new in my life by way of work. I did however purchase a brand new futon~! I am uber happy with it! It is so comfy on my back! In fact I can't wait to get to bed tonight! So you know how I was having trouble with my bosses? I have two new ones! I hope they both end up being better than the other two! So far the assistant is doing a horrible job but I have to give her some slack because she is new to the job. She was just a shift leader in the other store then got promoted to assistant manager. She took the job to help cover our manager who is now on maternity leave. She had a baby girl! She is healthy and was born just this morning! I hope to see my boss back soon. I am sorry I have been away for so long I am always doing something. I don't use my computer very often anymore. It feels great to be back! I hope I didn't bore you with my life, but I thought I would share how I have been. I am sorry for everyone's birthday I missed! I was so crushed to see that I missed so many! I will see you all again, but until then, over and out.
~outlawedgirl~
P.S. get it? out, outlawedgirl??
I am feeling better now than I was in my last post. I think letting my feelings out like that really helped. I thank those that let me vent to them through pm on theo here. The reason I love this site is kthat I can post anything and no one I know will read it. I apologize for my. ranting as well. I hope you all have a fantastic day.
~Outlawedgirl~
I have been really depressed as of late. I can't explain why that is but it could be because I feel that I am left out of everything my family does. My sister went to a park with my older sister, husband and their baby. She had a good time too. I know I shouldn't feel this way at all. She is going to my aunts the 31st and going to another park with my uncle in law. I don't like the way I feel and I am trying my hardest not to cry over it. It really sucks when you feel left out of everything. I was also told by her that my other younger sister, thinks I am mean and that my MOM, you read right MOM, thinks I am stupid. She was talking to my older sister a while back when my little sister went with my older sister to that park, she was talking about her dogs and how we had to go and let them out. Well she told my mom about the screen door in her house and to leave it open when they are going out because they run into it. Well that is a give in don't you think? My mom said "I know. I am not her this is your mom." Then my sister says "I know that is why I am telling you." How degrading is that? This is still all on my phone. I was so upset that I talked to my dad about it. He at least doesn't think I am stupid. I think I am his favorite kid. I love my dad a lot. I guess I have just heard a bunch of negative things about myself that I don't know how to control. I heard from one of my coworkers that two of my other coworkers are jealous of me. Apparently this was a while ago though. I work very hard, I try my hardest there, probably harder than anyone in the store besides my bosses. I know I sound like a broken record but I see no other way to explain my depression. It isn't that I am necessarily lonely just that I don't think others try hard enough to see me. My grandmother is the only one that really cares other than my dad, I believe, because she came down a few weeks ago to see just me because she missed me. I was really happy because I wont have her for much longer and it was great to see her doing so well. I have not seen any of my other family in over a year other than my sisters. The rest of my relatives all live a couple hours a way but never take the time to plan to meet my parents to have me go down there or what not. I know they don't make any plans to do that because I have responsibilities like my two dogs but it isn't fair. My sister gets to go anywhere she wants and doesn't have to help with the other five dogs. I take care of them all when she is gone. I need guidance. How am I suppose to cope with all of this. I think it is just too much. Please help me someone. I would greatly appreciate it.
~Outlawedgirl~
