I have been really depressed as of late. I can't explain why that is but it could be because I feel that I am left out of everything my family does. My sister went to a park with my older sister, husband and their baby. She had a good time too. I know I shouldn't feel this way at all. She is going to my aunts the 31st and going to another park with my uncle in law. I don't like the way I feel and I am trying my hardest not to cry over it. It really sucks when you feel left out of everything. I was also told by her that my other younger sister, thinks I am mean and that my MOM, you read right MOM, thinks I am stupid. She was talking to my older sister a while back when my little sister went with my older sister to that park, she was talking about her dogs and how we had to go and let them out. Well she told my mom about the screen door in her house and to leave it open when they are going out because they run into it. Well that is a give in don't you think? My mom said "I know. I am not her this is your mom." Then my sister says "I know that is why I am telling you." How degrading is that? This is still all on my phone. I was so upset that I talked to my dad about it. He at least doesn't think I am stupid. I think I am his favorite kid. I love my dad a lot. I guess I have just heard a bunch of negative things about myself that I don't know how to control. I heard from one of my coworkers that two of my other coworkers are jealous of me. Apparently this was a while ago though. I work very hard, I try my hardest there, probably harder than anyone in the store besides my bosses. I know I sound like a broken record but I see no other way to explain my depression. It isn't that I am necessarily lonely just that I don't think others try hard enough to see me. My grandmother is the only one that really cares other than my dad, I believe, because she came down a few weeks ago to see just me because she missed me. I was really happy because I wont have her for much longer and it was great to see her doing so well. I have not seen any of my other family in over a year other than my sisters. The rest of my relatives all live a couple hours a way but never take the time to plan to meet my parents to have me go down there or what not. I know they don't make any plans to do that because I have responsibilities like my two dogs but it isn't fair. My sister gets to go anywhere she wants and doesn't have to help with the other five dogs. I take care of them all when she is gone. I need guidance. How am I suppose to cope with all of this. I think it is just too much. Please help me someone. I would greatly appreciate it.

~Outlawedgirl~