Walking down the street hand in hand with you, my beloved soul mate. The fresh cold winter wind blowing against my face, but no wind going between our bodies. Your head rested on my shoulder as we walk. Going through the park, heading towards our apartment we shared…
“We were so happy.”
The apartment we shared with our band mates. When we get inside, we see them in the living room. YooSu happening on the couch. Changmin making out with his food. Doing all this during a movie.
“We had a beautiful family.”
We laughed and walked into our shared room. I close the door slowly and quietly as you get onto the bed. I walk over and get under the covers with you already under. We snuggle against each other. I put my arms around your waist, as you do the same. And your face buried into my chest. We lay there for awhile.
“We had each other.”
“JaeJoongie?” I call out softly.
“Hmm?” you reply.
“I love you.”
“I still love you.”
“I know. And I love you too~” you look up into my eyes, as I move my head closer to yours. And our lips meet in a passionate kiss. After we part, we go back to our original positions.
“Joongie.” You look back up and move a little from my chest, so that we can see each other clearly.
“Yes?” you smile at me, then I leaned in to kiss your forehead.
When I moved away, I said, “You know the movie they were watching?” you nodded. “I want to be the one to go first.”
“No.” you said.
“Why? I can’t be without you. I won’t live, anyway.”
“No one will go first.”
“…”
“How?” I asked.
“We’ll be together forever.” you said.
“Hm..” I think.
“You don’t think we’ll be together forever?” you asked.
“Of course, I do! But…”
“But, what?” with your little puppy eyes.
“But, if I actually do leave first, then you have to forget me.”
“Then if I go first, then you have to forget me. But we're going to be together forever!”
“Is that a threat?” I smirked.
“A promise.” you smiled.
“Lier.”
The next morning, I was awoken by a cold breeze coming from the window. I looked down at your beautiful sleeping face. ‘Joongie…’ I said in my head. “Jaejoong…” I called out. “Wake up…” I push you lightly on the shoulder to wake you up.
No response.
“JaeJoongie?” I hold your waist, to move you a little off my other arm. Cool. I slowly realize, that you can not hear me. “JAEJOONG!” I shout out, and held you closer to my body. The coldness of your body slipping through your clothes. I look at your beautiful face for the last time. I touch the remainder of the warmth of your cheeks. You lay there, in my arms; gone.
I start walking away from the stone, from the grass, from the dirt where lies…
Kim Jaejoong.
January 26, 1986 - February 1, 2010
In the arms of his loved one, who he will always watch over.
… the one person I ever loved. The one and only person…
Kim Jaejoong.
Im so sosososos sorry for not posting~
