confusing topic,
im not really sure wahts going on with me, like at school im kinda outgoing and stuff and at home im more of the quiet type. does that mean im twofaced?

AT HOME:
at home i never really do much, i sit in my room and just er kinda be there alone and i argue with my mom,

AT SCHOOl:
at school im extremely outgoing fun to be around hyper and agressive.

and the feelings for my mom are changing?
she really talks to me now but shes still mean to me, for some reason when im in pain, she jumps to action
maybe shes finally coming around? who knows. Today when we found out that this family we knew well..the mother beat the children ever since that shes being all close to me, AND SHE ACTAULLY LET ME TAKE A NAP TODAY!!
maybe its because of all the medication im on.

i dont want to go back to school.
oh and school is stressing me out and my family is trying to make me make up my mind of waht im going to do for the rest of my life...i mean im only 13, yes i know i should start thinking, but the way i see it, im not very good at alot of things. my mom kinda made me mad bcuz it was around 10PM and i was laying down (school night) and she was talking on the phone and said "yeah well destinys different, shell go for fashion or some type of designing, either way i hope she makes alot of money so she can take care of me" WHY IS SHE TRYING TO CHOOSE WAHT IM GOING TO DO FOR MY LIFE? AND WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO BE SELFISH LIKE THAT?
sure ill take care of her but im not gonna just give her my mom and be like YEP HERE YA GO.
i dont think so.

SORRY I HAD TO VENT><
i cant really vent anywhere else.