Aoi was ashamed. Extremely so... and when she lost control.. even more shame seemed to rip through the girl, never to be a woman. Emiko, Aoi's breathed outwards as though she could truly take oxygen into herself. It was strange, to say the least of things. She never believed she would have the feelings again. Yet they were back... alive in her... However, at the same time... she felt no hate towards Asa in the way Vessel spirits did... and so she felt she had a frictional amount of control... at least in her own hopes of things this was true. After a minute, she sighed outwards again finding that Emiko was paying attention now. I am sorry for taking advantage of your body and our connection. she said aloud feeling the shame of what she had done even more than normal. She could feel all of Emiko's emotions at that point, yet she could do nothing to soothe them.
A lot of good your sorry does. You put me here! Emiko shot back causing Aoi to flinch a fraction. It was true... she had done something not Vessel would have done without being killed... to put someone through it....However, only Emiko could get herself out of it.
You can come out of this darkness at any moment, but you seem broken, beaten. Aoi answered back feeling again the emotions of the girl. She wanted to say the words in her own mind. To tell Emiko everything. To show and explain and beg for things she could never rightfully ask for. However, she remained silent.
What do you mean? I want out now and nothing is happening! Emiko answered back as if in irritation. Aoi found a pain inside herself again.
No, your mind is very fragile. It is having a hard time taking in everything about the vessels and you don't seem ready to handle it. It didn't help that I forced myself through you. [/I Aoi answered back feeling another pain grow in her. No amount of apology could make up for it.... To get back out of this eternal darkness, you need to find your strength, your resolve, your courage. You need to learn to accept what is happening out there. There is a war coming and they will need you. Aoi spoke aloud suddenly feeling the recourse of Emiko's emotions. They were pushing Aoi's own being away... far away...
No one needs me. Emiko answered back. In that moment, Aoi wanted to shout back. Wanted to tell her how wrong she was. Yet she knew that no amount of word would allow for recovery in this way. Sighing outwards Aoi answered back.
This is your problem. Fix that, and you can survive. But know, if you stay in the darkness for too long, you may never again find the light.... Aoi felt the sudden stunned feeling that Emiko rebuked by this. The girl sighed outwards and floated in the mind of Emiko a fraction. It was.. a beautiful place... all the memories existing like water in the vast space of conscious.
I never asked for any of this.... Emiko said aloud. I never asked for it... why... why did you chose me of all people?
Aoi felt a sting go through her very existence. I could say I knew... but I don't..... Aoi answered back. I've been sleeping inside your heart... for a very long time...I don't even remember how I got here... remember dying really.... She sighed a bit. The last thing I remember was.... She broke off and said nothing more. Floating quietly, Aoi waited for Emiko.
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Matsu dreamed dark dreams tormented with suffering images and dark faces. Skulls laughed out and called to him making clicking noises with their broken jaws. Dark creatures with black forms reached for him and tried to rip at his limbs. He was small... and cradled around his own body lying on a ground he new not where. Fires broke out and raged around him. The sky above held floating doors and burning clouds. Noises screeched and squealed only causing the white haired man to continued to cling to himself. His pale body trembled and only caused the skulls to laugh out more.
Bony fingers found their way around the throat of the white haired man who found he could not scream out. They wrapped themselves around him forcing him back and to look at the blood red sky. And then it came again.... the knife... the thing that had taken his eye... it came closer and closer as though taunting him and only managing to infuse more fear into the boy who simply screamed out no.
He wanted to tear away... to change it all... to make it stop... yet it wouldn't. It wouldn't. Nothing would go away, and the knife remained there taunting him and now laughing at him with a twisted face and razor sharp teeth. It laughed and eyes formed on it making slits for pupils in itself.
Bones wrapped themselves around the body of the white haired man, and all he could do was breathe... in the fear that had encased his being torturing it and making it into nothing. He wanted away... a crackle of laughter... he wanted away from it all.... a broken sound.... he wanted to make it stop... a twisted scream not his own... and then Matsu realized... he couldn't make it stop.
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I... failed him..... Nino felt the pain of it go through him again. He walked out of Matsu's room feeling even more in pain than before. It was as though his entire being... had suddenly fallen apart. Again... he had let Matsu be hurt again... after what he had fought to try and preserve... he had failed... failure.... the word taunted him like a Cheshire cat. Failure.
And you can't even kill the white witch that did it.... Doki mused in Nino's mind. However, the vessel spirit found himself up against a brick wall in Nino's mind... There was no way around it.... the wall was seeping with the words that bore into the dark haired man, and there was nothing Doki could do about it.
In the strange moments after Nino came to realize he was now sitting in Ryuu's hospital room, the dark haired man turned his head and found the slate haired boy trying desperately to convince the nurse that he was fine. However, catching Nino's eye, Ryuu fell silent. Both stared for a minute as teh dark haired man stood in the slate haired boy's room. "Thank you.... for bringing back Matsu..." Nino said darkly making a sudden bow. "Thank you.... for not letting him.... die..."
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Ok weird... the italics are being weird ._. dunno what to do <_< sorry people.
