Hey... Weeks have been very bad for me. I'm really getting the artist's depression.
- My works on figure drawing/anatomy/realism are all failing grades.
- My paintings skills have gone very bad. My friends' works are amazing while mine just sucks and had shitty grade.
- There's this very simple photography subject we are given. I've taken shots for weeks and still my photographs are crap. My family already helped me but I'm the one at fault because I really suck at photography. I tried but I couldn't get that shot I want. Thanks to that, I have no submissions for that work.
- I hate every art that I do. Even the digital ones. I feel like I want to burst out because I'm so useless and I feel I don't really deserve to be in Fine Arts.
- Payment for my prelims gave my parents more debt.
- I accidentally heard my mother talk to my father that she thinks I picked the wrong course. I guess even my mother is not proud of my shit artistic skills.
- And again, the trigger of me quitting college is getting even more worse.
I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep. I have no motivation to make my other art homework right now.
