I just wanted to do a new post before the new year, because, I am too lazy to pick up a pen and write in my journal. Not like anyone reads these, I just like having little things about myself floating around to go look back on and see if I actually managed to change and grow up a bit; also, if I actually accomplished more with college... ^^;
*cough* So,
I am getting smaller and smaller. I don't really loose a lot of pounds as much as inches making my pants size go down a little bit every other month, but no complaining there. I do weight lifting and can pretty much lift 50 lbs. ^_^ ...These things are always good to remember when I have a binge attack with some kind of junk food or candy. And the binging is now half as often as it used to be- heck yeah! I have only lost a little more than half the weight I want to, so, I'm telling myself that I just have to keep on keepin' on with that whole mini form of hell. *cry* DX
With college, I'm going to list what I have left according to what's listed in the college catalog to get my Associates Degree with a major in Art: English 2, Gov. 1, Gov. 2, Art History 1, Art History 2, & a Science class. (I took Chem. 1 and passed it because the professor gave everyone a B; so, I actually should of failed it, and now I need a second class to be done with Science... *cry*) It's been since 2010- 3 semesters into being at college- since I've been a full time student, and remembering that makes me feel a tad bit better about not having transferred to get my four year degree yet... But I always end up having to repeat classes no matter how many hours I take, so, then I still feel bad 'cause it's already about to be 2014 and no 2 year degree. Sh*t.
With doing artwork, it comes and goes. Seriously, I have no passion anymore. I think I will again when I'm not in my parents' place, but at this point, I'm just too frustrated about more important stuff to worry about art. It's a shame too, I use to improve pretty noticeably through out a single year, but, I just think I'm in a long funk because of stress...
SO YEAH: loose the rest of the weight, keep it off, and get a very toned body- a little more muscular than most would care for on a chick, but IDGAF; and finish Jr. College with a Degree by the end of Summer Semester 2 in 2014. ...Pretty much a continuation of 2013's goals... I don't have a job like I did then though, and the parentals' don't expect me to get another one until I'm out of their house. I'll make my time much more productive once on the class' schedule; and won't have restrictions because of shifts... I always pray to God, "Please help me, help myself; be more forgiving, calm, nice, and less anything negative. Protect us from all that is harmful, and keep me running full speed towards my many, many goals- no matter how frustrated I get. I pray for more self-discipline, and self-love. Amen." (Or something along those lines when I'm stressed or not feeling too good.)
SAT.~12/28/13
