I have decided that I am nothing special. I have never excelled at school. I have never really shown signs of intelligence. I am normal. But being normal is okay. I shouldn't be trying to be better than everyone because we are all equal. And I am just me. People tell me I'm intelligent all the time, but I'm just of average intelligence. So I should stop trying to be perfect because nobody is perfect. We are all just people. And that is normal. It's normal to be a flawed human being.
So I'm going to stop trying to be perfect and do it all, and now I will look to my strengths for guidance instead of trying to fit into shapes that are not me. It makes me sad that I'm not super intelligent or gifted or anything, but I've known this for a long time. I've known that I'm just me. I'm more than a "bad" person or a "good" person. I'm... human.