Hey... Hm.
I've figured out that I need to be confident. And to do that I have to make decisions that seriously affect my future. Which means I can't just keep letting things fall into place without trying. And I know how to do that. I just have to decide... like, in what way am I going to do it. I guess.
I think I have a decision to make at present. But I don't exactly realize what it is. I think there is just something that I have to choose to keep... uh.... being successful. Or to be successful. Because at the moment I'm just kind of hanging in there.
I'm kind of worried that I, well, worry too much about myself without actually paying attention to what is going on around me that would help whatever I am worried about. So I guess I kind of gotta', like... start taking care of my problems? Instead of worrying about them all the time, which just makes them worse.
Uh. I'm not too sure what else to say. I got kicked out of/left my brother's house, so that's a thing. I came out on fb as a pansexual agendered person. I'm back at work at school. I don't know what I want to do with my life. Oh, I've decided to stop pining over someone I can never have. I have to stop trying to impress people because I just end up driving them away. And I have to stop, like, almost worshiping people who I think are better than me. Because people are all equal to each other.
Anyways. I'm out.