Okay, so, The Otaku has been down every time I ever try to access it on my computer -- I think it might be my internet provider's fault. That's why I haven't posted this yet, and holy crap I have to write this in school when there's people who can read it over my shoulder. o_o;
Anyway. I have this crush, right? On this girl named Chelsea. I kind of started liking her around March, after I figured out my whole sexuality thing and was mostly over Alex. I mostly didn't let myself think about it, though, because my heart was still sore from the Alex heartbreak and I didn't want that to happen again.
Well. This year, I have a few classes with Chelsea. And the other day I overheard her and a friend (Lindsay) talking about homecoming, and Chelsea said something like "You need to help me get a date!" and then Lindsay did the whole scenario thing and said stuff like "She looks tall enough for you!" and "She looks cool!" SHE. I heard her say she. So now I'm wondering if I actually do have a chance with her...
And today in College Statistics, I asked Lindsay if I could talk to her later. So, holy shit fuck, I'm going to clarify what I heard and find out if I actually have a chance. I can't believe I was actually that brave.
I'm so nervous, and it's all I can think about now. I'm really jittery, too... I can't help it. I get like this every time something exciting or nervous is going to happen to me. Gahhhhh.
Actually, I think I have somewhat of an approach-avoidance disorder. Every time I get closer to something I want I shy away from it. The same thing is happening with me and Europe. I saved all summer to try and go, and now as I get closer I find I'm still short some money, and I'm suddenly telling myself that I can't ever get that money anyway so I should just give up now. But I've been working so hard for all this money, I don't even get it! =o=;
Well, anyway. Wish me luck talking to Lindsay later. >>;
