-Badrak
The first time I woke up I saw I was in the same room from before but my head didn’t want to analyze anything at that moment so I felt asleep; the second time it was early, that fact made me upset since I wanted to rest for a while after the strange events of the previous night; how did I realize it was real? Pretty simple, there was a scar in one of my arms that wasn’t supposed to be there.
The sound of people that was already awake made it worst because it felt like an obligation to stand up and greet everyone, my option was to stay in bed reading for a while because I knew the sensation of sleep was not going to come again.
Something about this day was wrong and for several reasons such as the cold weather, waking up early and the fact I couldn’t concentrate on the book I was reading were making me angry.
“Look up in the eye of your enemy because he is the first one to see your defects”
I still don’t understand why I reread that phrase over and over again, it had to mean something because it took my attention but…an enemy? I did not have to wait for so long in order to find the answer to that question; from one moment to another there was a vibe full of rage and anger coming to where I was located.
When there was a knock on the door, my mind identified the gijinka, it was Lux. The only reason for him to come with that feeling was that somehow he was aware of Hoom’s information but as I tried to figure out how was he able to know it more questions came. Maybe acting as if nothing had happened was the best option for now; I was not aware of what was waiting for me.
As soon as I opened the door the horrible feeling made me nervous
"Hey Lux, is there something I can do for you?" I said calmed and normal as possible. There was no answer but you could see a lot of pain in his eyes "Hey Lux you look mad is every…" and so, it began.
I felt how my face was hit in a hard way and before I knew it the angry feeling came though me; however Lux was not going to give me any time to use that in my favor.
"WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG-" were the worlds I managed to pronounce before a hard mass got over me; once again I felt how the pain went all over my face until it became numb; however my mind was still trying to figure out that phrase; at that time everything as clear.
"YOU BASTARD! YOU BASTARD! ITS ALL YOUR FAULT! ALL OF IT! YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" That time I was hit in a harder way and it was nasty to taste my own blood
"What....are ...you…talking about?" Why was I asking that question if I already knew the answer? I was a depreciable being for letting Hoom know about the kiss. I deserved everything that was happening, totally deserve it…but on the other side…
"SHUT UP! SHUT THE HELL UP YOU JACKASS!" This guy was strong…if he continued like this the final result was not going to be pleasant; at that point I tried to defend myself but it was in vain, punches kept coming from every direction.
"YOU DON'T GET IT DO YOU! IT'S YOUR FAULT! THAT HOOM WON'T SPEAK TO ME!" For a moment the thought of keeping there and dying in silence was something nice but then the promise I made with myself entered my mind and a sudden rush of living hit me
"THEN YOU SHOULDN"T HAVE KISSED ESTELLE!" Lux suddenly stopped himself from hitting me and words kept flowing out of my mouth in their own because I knew the situation was going to get worst "Hoom doesn't deserve to be cheated on. She certainly doesn't deserve someone like you who would go behind her back kissing other girls. That isn't what you do." Yes, I deserved what was happening but still defending that Houndoom girl…
"You don't get it do you? That was only half of the story you idiot." What was he talking about? Some seconds passed and then it hit me…What if…no..yes?...
"You're a psychic, well I am sure you missed the part about her being human. Surely you knew about that? Why not get the whole damn story fool!" as soon as my hand was placed in his forehead I wished he had truly killed me…
"Lux...I...Oh my god. I didn't mean to show Hoom that. It was an accident!" what a perfect moment to tell the truth you idiot! He is not going to care if you tell him that happens to you all the time, he is not going to listen that if you haven’t done it, Hoom would be dead; at the end it was something that went beyond what I could control.
He suddenly seemed to have finished his task as he walked to the door.
"I won't deny I love both Hoom and Estelle. But you had no business doing what you did, regardless if it was an accident or not." If you mean I didn’t have any business in saving her life then I won’t go against you, I promise to leave that work to you…
"Well let me make it up to you. I will talk to her." For the first time I tried to stand up but my body was not ready for that action; however I meant what I said.
"You've done enough. I am not stupid Badrak. You're right she probably doesn't deserve me. She seems a hell of alot happier with you are Lee for that matter. Take care of her because if you don't...I swear to Ho-oh....I'll kill you!" Now he is telling me to take care of her? Interesting and confusing at the same time
When the world finally stopped the action of turning around, my tail helped me to arrive to the bed; whit a slight movement the door was totally locked and now the waterfall of thoughts made me feel like a piece of trash.
You should just die there, everywhere you arrive you always cause disgrace…why did you stopped here? You didn’t have to save her, now, you ruined everyone’s life for something you don’t know how to control, You are better dead, after all do you know why you were born? You’ve lived life without knowing how to and you will die without knowing how or why it happened…at least you will meet your family
Yes, you are right in everything, in fact I don’t know why I stupidly felt this was the place for me; travelling around is my life and I guess stopping now was the worst decision ever; I question life everyday…
And yes, I will go away from this place, no one would care if I did; Poochy and Akira would remember me as a guy who one day appeared form somewhere and then disappeared; as for Hoom, before I leave I must talk to her…no one deserves feeling that pain.
If I was going to talk to her, getting out of the room was not the best idea; the simple idea of looking at my face was something that disgusted me so what would the others say? The best thing was to wait some time and then consult the doctor before leaving. Maybe if I tried to contact her via thoughts, yes, that would work.
I closed my eyes and started to look for her
“can you hear me Hoom?....” there was a long pause before she finally answered
“Badrak?...how is it that you…wait, are you fine? I can smell your blood from here…” there was a surprise for actually achieving that objective, it was the first time I tried to communicate by that way.
“It was an accident I had; now listen and watch this….” At that time my mind rolled the scenes of before and the new scenes it got from Lux “…See? I only got half of the reason…I’m truly sorry for that, everything was a mistake…” That time I tried to be careful in order to keep the images of the fight aside.
“…you don’t need to ask for forgiveness Badrak, after all I think your intention was no that one of showing me that scenes on purpose right?” I had to keep in silence because she was right but if I thought about it, there was a part of me that wanted to show her that… “…The other reason is that sooner or later I was going to know about it” there was a fake laugh from her and then she continued “As I told you before, the only things I know is that I love him; the problem is not to forgive, the problem is to forget….But I’m willing to forget or at least I’m willing to have an open mind for an explanation”
“I’m glad these are your thoughts dear. Now are you planning to take action?”
“Yes, if I can keep some of the Calm mind from Lee-san, then I’ll go right now”
“Then…you are not alone right?”
“no…I’m not alone, why do you ask?”
“Well…this tends to happen but are you sure you didn’t talked out loud when you were answering me?”
“…I don’t.…wait…OH CRAP!!”
I couldn’t help myself but to smile at her reaction; then the tiredness came to me and knowing I was going to leave soon, a bath sounded very relaxed.
The time seemed to pass in a slow way and when it was done there was enough courage from me to look at the wounds. My face was swollen up, there was a part near my left eye that kept bleeding and as for the rest of my body, it all hurt.
My clothes were on and I took a shirt with a hood to put over my head and try to hide my face. My legs walked out of the room and began to slowly walk through the corridors trying to find out the doctor.
Hopefully no one was going to notice me…
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Bleeeh anyone can bump with him XDDDDD as for Hoom…well it appears she is going to talk with Lux soon XP
O yeah about some of the phrases…haha I searched for them last night sooo yep…
