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I didn’t understand what was happening until the phrase “Well…this tends to happen but are you sure you didn’t talked out loud when you were answering me?”
“…I don’t.…wait…OH CRAP!!” I yelled as my eyes turned to see the faces of Lee, Kat and Sable looking at me as if I was crazy, well I didn’t blame them, after all what would you do if the person right in front of you began to talk to apparently nobody? My face was red like a tomato
“Emm….have you been listening all this time?” I asked not being able to raise my head to look at them
“Yes…”They all said
“I…I was talking to Badrak…”
“Is he all right? You said something about his blood…” Lee said
“He said he had an accident…” An awkward silence was occurring but I was glad they didn’t ask for anything referring to the part of the incident. On the other hand, several things began to pass through my mind; at the end there was courage enough to face everything. I was determined in talking with hi.
“…I must leave now…if you excuse me..” I stood up and then heard Kat
“Good luck with that conversation” she gave me a smile and the only thing that came from me was an embarrassed nod. Then when I was about to leave Lee stood
up and whispered something on my ear.
“Calm mind” then the fast beating of my heart began to slow down and everything felt a little bit better.
“Thank you Lee-san” I bowed and left feeling better for the fact that it everything pointed I had some support….
This time I slowly headed for the third time to the mansion’s door and noticed that there was a sunny day going on. God I hate sunny days…
My mind was somewhere else while my legs walked me to Lux’s location and some meters before arriving my legs stopped.
It seemed something had happened because Chii, Sparks and Lux were confused about something…apparently Lupe was in that location but now her scent was vanishing; at one point Chii was about to follow her but Sparks and Lux stopped him telling him to leave her alone for a while, he resigned that option and left after her.
Maybe I should do the same and leave Lux alone for a while…but then I think the courage I have will disappear and I don’t want to run away anymore.
I made sure to stay far enough from them so they couldn’t notice me and then sat down; at first they continued the Yoga thing they were doing and just watching at them made forget about everything for a while, after some time Sparks left and there was my chance.
“How long have you been there?” Said Lux without turning back
For my part, I slowly walked towards him who had been standing up without saying anything; at least he didn’t run away as I did before.
“Umm…should we sit down somewhere?” Again my voice was not very strong, Lux sat down right where he was and I did the same
“Are you here to tell me that what I did was wrong? Is that it? He deserved
it….” He was at the defense and seconds later his words made some sense, he was the one who caused Badrak’s “accident”. A small chill passed through me as I saw his fist shaking but then I kneeled in front of him.
“Actually, that wasn’t the reason…” my eyes found his and they looked so cold; at that point I thought there wasn’t going to be any conversation but then words began to escape from my heart.
“First, I’m sorry about this morning, I wasn’t sure of what to say and still feel like that; I also feel hurt and can’t deny it, however what is done is done, I guess I’m not aware of the full situation but still it was a fact...” He was about to say something but I put my finger on his lips.
“Just listen… Since the day I met you I was afraid of hugging you, when I hugged you I was afraid of kiss you, then when I kissed you I was afraid of loving you and now that I love you….I’m afraid of losing you…” I was surprised of what was coming out of my mouth “I don’t want to be anyone’s second option either so if that means that we need to separate then..” I wasn’t able to continue the phrase for two reasons, first one the lump in my throat didn’t let me and second one, Lux grabbed my shoulders.
What to do if he was the one who was making me cry inside but at the same time was the only one who could comfort me? How to tell him I felt as if I wasn’t good enough for him? How to tell him he was going to be better with Estelle…no…I didn’t want that, I was going to fight in my own way.
He began to talk.
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Ammmm blame the strange phrases I'm finding XDDD naaa not really..was this ok? o__o if not I can change it hehe
As for Badrak...Blue-chan said she was going to post Cheruu's part sooo I'll wait for that XD sorry Defi...
