-Hoom
Kat and the other began to slowly disappear leaving me thinking about that someday I should tell them everything and how valuable their help was for me.
Some minutes passed and my mind was entirely empty, something I attribute to the fact I wanted to postpone that internal discussion but since the day was being pretty interesting I let it happen. Noticing the day was horribly sunny, the best for me was to enter the forest and found a dark spot where I could be alone and calmed; fortunately that task was completed in a fast way.
Now my back was against an old log and different sounds interrupted that unique silence.
“Well Hoom, now what should you do?...You can take two points of view which are valid enough” Talking to myself in a low way seemed strange for me at first but noticing no one was around I continued “First one is to let Lux be, if I understood his point of view then the option will sound like this: I don’t want to lose you, however because I love you like I do, then I just can’t be selfish… I want you to be happy and if in order to complete that objective I need to get separated from you…I’ll do it, knowing I’m dying in the inside…”
Yes that could be my option watching it in a responsible way; but then…why couldn’t I be selfish for once? Why was I letting everything to continue without my concern? This time what was in the game was my own life so, why keeping quiet knowing wasn’t right for me?
“Thinking it about like that, my second option is to…what, fight against Estelle?? No…. that is something I don’t want to…Then, leaving the mansion for some time? Negative, Hon would probably follow and I know he is pretty happy here…”
Was Lux having a sort of conversation like this? If he did and was thinking about leaving; if he dare to leave without saying anything I would chase him like father taught me. A sound of a tiny pokemon moving around distracted me and at the same time centered me again.
“Definitevely I won’t act as if everything was normal, and didn’t affect me, but then, what to do?” I let a howl full of frustration and again, the tiny sound of a pokemon distracted me; at that time I noticed it was a little Pidgey…a Pidgey!
“Come here sweetie” I said to him; at first you could see he was very scared but something made him stay there. “Have you seen a Pidgeot gijinka near here?”
I don’t know how but he answered, in a negative way, and felt more at peace so I got the chance and continued the conversation “Don’t you think it is very hard? I mean Happiness is supposed to be something good, not something were you suffer; then that means what I have been living is not happiness?”
The Pidgey tilted his head to one side and then looked at me, something which made me sigh
“I don’t want to suffer in order to feel happy. But it is unfair too, Estelle can choose, Lux too and what is left for me? Nothing…” The Pidgey gurgled something “And you are right, maybe I’m fortunate because I don’t suffer or maybe I’m unlucky? Then again, why does being alone affect me in such this way?”
I was frustrated again, that time I hit the log, making it broke. Then it hit me. Literally, the Pidgey hit me in the head at the same time a thought did
“I understand now! Being alone affects me in such a hard way because I don’t love myself in the way I should, if it was like that, then being alone wouldn’t be that bad and there would be peace. First I have to work loving me, that way when I’m at balance with myself I would be able to be at balance with everything”
The Pidgey talked in a happy way letting me know I had understood, then he began to fly
“I promise you I’ll be busy being happy!” I yelled as he disappeared. New energy flooding through me made me feel serene and with that in mind, I walked out of the forest heading to the mansion.
When I finally arrived, my first objective was to search for Badrak, curiosity was killing me in such a strange way. Why would I want to see the state in which Lux left him if I knew it was bad enough? Who knew, it was too late since my nose guide my body to the Doctor’s office.
From one moment to another, I found myself knocking softly at the door; since no one answered my body acted and decided to enter with my mind repeating the phrase “Act as normal as you can Hoom”
An interesting scene was going on; three new gijinkas where there, one of them who seemed to be a Teddiursa was pretty wounded, the Doctor, which I suppose was the Zangoose was treating her while a Gengar gijinka watched for her state; near to the Gengar was Gale the Girafarig gijinka I’ve met in the nightmare.
“umm Hello?...do you need any help’?” Well helping at that kind of circumstances was not my fort but that was the only phrase to break the ice and it worked; all of them turned around, The Zangoose made a negative sign with his head and continued working, you could notice he really loved his profession; the Gengar looked at me for few seconds then returned his attention to the Teddiursa; Gale kept on looking at me
“Hi Gale…Do you remember me from the dream?” I said trying not to disturb the atmosphere. He nodded “…Then this might sound strange but, do you happen to know if there is a Kadabra gijinka here?” My eyes began to look around.
“You mean Badrak?” He suddenly said standing up and guiding me to where he was.
The scene kind of shocked me but I made my biggest effort to hide that, apparently it was working. As I approached to him, I grabbed one of his hands in a soft way
“We don’t know who did this…” He was truly worried for him and then my answer came in a very spontaneous way
“I did it.” What the hell was wrong with me?? O__o Somehow I was responsible but why did I said that out loud. There was a sudden stop in the activities as I felt eyes watching me; a nervous laugh began to escape my mouth and then I turned to them. “Seriously…do you think I did it?” I laughed again as if everything had been a strange joke…they bought it
“I don’t know how can you be laughing at a time like this” The activities returned to normal but Gale’s eyes made me feel bad, so my body turned to Badrak again; this time I began to caress his face and hair.
“He told me he fought again with a ghost type…” Pretty interesting Hoom, now you are making up an excuse.
“How do you know?” Gale suddenly asked in a suspicious way
“I was talking with him after the accident happen…” the story sounded pretty suspicious but some parts were real and deep inside I knew neither Badrak or I wanted to accuse Lux. If they suspect me I didn’t have any problem because I knew Badrak was going to agree with my story, now the problem remained in the fact Badrak was going to wake up at some point and maybe, thinking about the same, would make up another story that wouldn’t match with mine.
At that time my hand felt a soft movement from his, and then he softly moved.
“Is he getting conscious? No, probably just a few seconds, the morphine effect is still working” The Zangoose answered to himself and I didn’t waist the chance; quickly I got near his ears and whispered in the lowest possible way
“You fought a ghost….” With that I gave him a soft kiss in the forehead that looked motherly. “I’ll come to visit you later ok?”
I turned again in order to exit and found myself with the eyes looking at me again; however this time they seemed more relaxed as they saw what I did…
“Umm, by the way my name is Hoom, nice to meet you” I said before going out of the room
“I’m Gray” The Gengar said
“And the Doctor’s name is Zaishi” Gale said seeing Zaishi was concentrated in his work.
With that said I exit the place with a confused mind So that meant normal for you??? Ignoring my thoughts I brought back my second objective: Hon.
Searching for him was not very difficult at all, I found him along with Andreas and Melody; however again, my body began to act alone and charged at him with everything I had, Melody and Andreas expressions were full of surprise as well as Hon’s. The movements I did, made him notice I was kind of playing but at the same time I was serious and mad at him.
When our little fight was over I bite his ear then whispered
“Why did you have to act in such a stupid way!!???” I hit his head and then looked at the right “Next time just don't go away like that..."
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OMB! I hope that was fine….if not….BLEEEh XDDDD
Finally I was able to post something and go against the block hehe
For Badrak...-___-
