-Hoom
Included: Lux and Gil XD
Lux truly surprised me but it was one of those moments of being happy because of that reaction; I mean not for the fact of him dealing with all the pain he caused himself…it was for the fact he opened his eyes; my heart began beating out of control and then I was suddenly taken out of the room while the doctors stabilized him and my anxiety returned, but I kept in silence and sat down in the waiting room for not making things worst…everything was going to be fine….
From one moment to another, the doctor exited the room and after Gil talked to him he said it was fine to me if I entered again; of course there wasn’t any doubt in doing that, at that time I could categorize myself as a stalker but the simply thought of leaving him alone or out of my sight made me uneasy… As soon as my eyes made contact, tears begin to fall down again, it was kind of bothersome for me to not be able to stop crying all over the day but something told me it was one of the only ways to show him how much his state and him being alive made me the luckiest woman in the earth.
“Lux!” The only thing I wanted to do at the moment was to hold him, feel his heart beating, his breathing and finally convincing myself he was not going to leave us so I hugged him in a soft way. “You’re okay Lux…I’m so glad…” What else could I say? Maybe the feelings within me would explode in a million words but hopefully he was understanding. Maybe too much since he began to move, something he was not supposed to do in the actual state.
“Lux you shouldn’t it’s okay, I am just glad you are awake.” I considered myself lucky just to see him like that so he didn’t need to do anything else…not for now…But I think I misjudged it because Lux began to take his oxygen mask away, it panicked me.
“Lux, please…” just remain still please……..Not working but there wasn’t any solution from my part either so my best answer was to look at what he did until his eyes made contact with mine…That look, why? Did I did anything wrong?
“Lux..?” Those sad eyes…anything but that….
“…H……Ho….Hoom….”
“Yes?”
“Hoom….What….what happened to your legs?” huh? This is not the time to be worrying about that!!!
“Umm, it’s nothing really. I only faced two of my greatest fears was all.” At least I wanted to be honest with him.
“I….I’m sorry…Hoom…” What happened next made me feel something new. Lux was crying…The first time I ever saw it and at the same moment the meaning of that crying arrived to me. “Hoom….I…..I’m so sorry….for hurting you……I…” I already said it was fine for now…The only thing that matters is you being here.
“I love you Hoom!” Another shocking phrase to me; it took me some seconds to actually believe it since it was the first time a guy, except from some of them, told me that in a sincere way.
We kissed the sweetest kiss in my entire life; however two things begin to ruin the moment. First one was my sobbing and the fact I couldn’t say anything; second, it was the fact a wave of information invade me and again it made me realize some things that I couldn't keep with myself.
“I love you too…more than anything…” whispers where working for me “but…you are an idiot…” I slowly placed his head over the pillow and couldn’t hide the sad eyes, now coming from me; Lux had a surprised expression but I did promise to tell him how I felt; maybe it wasn’t the best moment but again, if I didn’t start to do it then it would be keep hidden with me.
“Aren’t I enough for you to be happy?” I wanted to be as honest as I could but the simply sight of him looking down, sad again, was breaking that strength.
You know you have to do this
“Its not….what you’re thinking….please” And there was I, looking how he tried to talk in whispers; really what else was I expecting from him? What I was saying was making feel even worst, there was another decision that had to be taken; however that time something told me it was going to be different of the last time I said it.
“I just want to know why did you do that to yourself….And I’m willing to wait for it when you are ready” I softly grabbed his face “I want to know more about you and your past. The only thing I ask for is for you to be honest with me from now on and that you keep this promise…” my eyes turned to one side still sad hoping that it really happened this time; maybe the scars on his back had to do with it or maybe not; I simply wanted to exit that dark corner I was in when it came to him; it was killing me not to be able to do anything because of not knowing anything.
“I’ll understand that…. you don’t ….want to be ………..with me anymore… I’m……… a horrible man” that last part broke my heart again; my intention was not to make him feel like this…neither to make him do efforts of talking.
My face turned to him again as my hands grabbed his.
“Lux, I’ve always known that you have a dark past and the fact they injected something to you doesn’t matter to me at all….” An honest smile came to my face “…It’s the first time I’m feeling this for anyone; I really don’t know what I’m supposed to do for you to understand my feelings and that I truly love you sometimes…”
There was silence for some minutes…eternal minutes.
“Hoom…you…Thank you… for believing…….in me…..” At first I only kissed his forehead, but then I began to kiss him in the lips; just when we were in the middle of another sweet moment, a nurse interrupted us saying the doctor needed me for something.
As we kept walking through the corridors, me following the nurse; the scene from before played on my head and after it finished I felt guilty. Why did I had to tell him everything just like that knowing he had just tell me “I love you”??? I was being a mess because of the whole situation, that was true; however it was also true that it has something that needed to be done…no matter if I was feeling like this right now.
At the end, the whole conversation with the doctor was just to sign some papers; then they interrupted me again to see if the wounds were doing fine and after proving they were, I was finally returning to Lux’s room wondering where Gil had been this entire time…did he left? Maybe he needed to rest….
Lux was sleeping, probably still very tired from everything, so my legs moved towards the couch near the window of the room and I remained there watching the nature for some hours until my ears heard he was awake. To tell you the truth, he looked like he was healing fast and that made me smiled again. Some minutes later Gil entered the room in an abrupt way; good thing he was still around.
“Hoom…. The nurses are stalking me…. I bought some time by telling them I was going to bring Lux’s medicaments… Please make him take everything or else those crazy women will stalk me until death…” He sighed and put everything on the table; but when he was about to leave he suddenly continued the conversation.
“Oh, by the way Lux, how are you feeling?” He seemed worried, my eyes turned to Lux and since he was a men you could probably know the answer for that question…guys are proud.
“Im fine…..Thanks…” There you had a proud answer…
“Cool!.. Then…” Gil suddenly punched Lux making me panic for a moment but then I was relieved to know it wasn’t a punch given with all his strength or else Lux would be In trouble. “That was for attacking me without reason, insulting me and making Hoom cry… See you then…” with that he left the room
“Gil!!!!! What did you do????” He was already outside being surrounded by a group of blushing nurses…He may be really pissed right now... Sitting down in the waiting room like an idiot watching cursy TV dramas and having all those girls bothering him… God he must be stressed… But I have to think him for staying with me… I smiled again then realized the situation and quickly turned to Lux who was dizzy and in pain.
“Are you fine?” From the machines, there was an agitation on his vital signs but as far as I knew, nothing dangerous. Lux gave me a look that was read easily “Gil, just wait until I can stand up from here…” and then “Hoom, why did you gave him permission to do that??”
“Because you acted like an idiot…” I kissed the place where he was punched then continued “ Gil is just upset because he kind off consider you his friend… I think…” From his expression I think he tried to say he didn’t care.
“You are so stubborn…” I smiled again “and I think I might wait until a nurse comes and shows me hoe to give any medicament to you…I don’t want to make any mistake….” My face turned to one side kind of embarrassed for what I was going to say but as soon as Lux gave me a “continue” looks I did “I’m sorry for having all these mood swings….” That time I made sure not to rest on his chest; I accommodated myself in a form in which I could have cuddle with him and as soon as he placed his hand over my head, he made me the happiest girl in the world. We kept like that until we both felt asleep.
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Ok I hope it was fine...emm Hoom hasn't noticed Hon is in there yet ^^'''' hehe gomen for that...and if there's anything wrong just let me know :3
And thank you kroooooo XD you know that we did this together XP so u know me wuvs you
*puff*
