YEIIII Im baaack *dances* luckily kro mantained me informed hehe and so I was able to work on Lun's and Hoom's post Ammm I forgot to say something in Lun's post but Im too lazy to edit it so Im doing it here haha
Emm the post was wrote in order for you to know her a little bit better...well she behaves like that around people she trusts and also, you could see she likes playing ouija haha and why one o her fears is being disrespected by a guy soo yep that was it now..enjoy Hoom's!
-Hoom
Included: Lux, Gil, Hon and Raine
Lux sat down and began his explanation; what I didn’t know what that that conversation was going to affect me a lot.
“All right so you want to know why I did the deed of killing myself? Well its very simple Hoom, actually is very elementary. I thought it was best to kill myself because I’m not happy at the mansion. I felt that my purpose in the world was nonexistent, that is why. So just disappearing without being missed and getting rid of many would seize to exist.” Reality was becoming harder as I listened, however for what I could tell Lux was also being selfish with his purpose; h had forgot about everyone that cared for him.
“But…How can you say that? I mean what about Hon, Gil, Shupple, Abbie and the others? What about us Lux? ” just mentioning that last part made me noticed that probably our relationship didn’t matter if he thought like that…I was crying again but tried to calm and continued “What about your brother Xio or even Estelle?”
“Estelle is the reason I did this Hoom; I killed myself because of her to prove a point to her. She broke me Hoom, and she broke the love we had for each other” What was I supposed to say? He just told me they loved each other and that she was the reason for him making what he did…For a part I felt so angry at her but the pain going through me was gaining space…I needed to handle it somehow since I was the one who asked for the truth regardless the consequences right? I simply felt to the floor avoiding eye contact.
“I don’t expect you to understand all this Hoom but Estelle and I were each others…first loves…” And you tell me about more painful things…I was feeling like crap because deep inside… I knew we had nothing didn’t we? Lux continued his explanation and I discovered more things about his past but as my ears heard him saying ”I won’t deny this, I love her so much…” my heart stopped and hope slowly began to disappeared until he continued his phrase “but it all came down to what I wanted and who I desired most…that was you Hoom. I fell in love with your beautiful spirit, your body, your delightful personality, and that smile of yours. I don’t care that you are a Houndoom Hoom, I love you for you and I did not have any desire to lose you.”
Was I dreaming? Or in fact he did told me those words…yes it was true and made me feel so special, except for the Houndoom part; I thought love didn’t know barriers but I must say the guy I dated before was a Houndom too, so maybe at the end, species of pokemon tend to go along with the same types…
“I made the mature decision to talk to Estelle, but even though I still wanted to have some sort of relationship with Estelle…” that’s when I noticed his voice breaking and for the second time I saw him crying, again not from happiness and because of her fault.
“Estelle did the worse thing possible… she erased… she erased all her memories of us. Everything, every goddamn thing. She didn’t remember our friendship as children, she didn’t remember our feelings for the others, everything, all these good memories we had, she erased them just to make herself feel better yet I am living knowing she forgot about us, when I never wanted that to happen. I hated her for doing something so selfish and escaping her problems.
Everything was in vain Hoom, it is meaningless and she went and broke my heart”
An immense pain arrived to my stomach because Estelle had hurt him so badly and I didn’t want him to suffer anymore but from what I could sense, that suffering was not going to stop so easily; he was getting angry.
“I wanted to die so she at least could feel the same damn pain I was feeling because of her. So being dead, she could feel the pain from my death.” Death was not the solution!
“But, how would that make you feel Lux, Is dead really something you wanted even if it cause me pain too?” I wanted to be selfish too, be selfish with him in some aspects…
“Hoom, you are beautiful, I had no doubt you could move on and find someone better then me. At least you wouldn’t have to think badly of me, I could just be a memory while I lived with the full awareness of not even being a memory anymore to Estelle”
He didn’t know anything didn’t he? How could he say something like that… Anger began to slightly affect me again
“You’re wrong Lux, you’re-”
“NO HOOM! I don’t fear death anymore. I….I…I DON’T CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO ME
HOOM. NOW I HAVE TO LOOK MYSELF IN THE FUCKING MIRROR AND SEE THIS DAMN SCAR ON MY EYES WHICH WILL BE A PAINFUL REMINDER OF ESTELLE AND HOW SHE WONT REMEMBER US!” Damn, now how was I supposed to calm him down if he was being this stubborn and scary?...there was only an option…
“Lux…”
“WHAT?” He was too angry to listen so I did as calm as possible; putting my hand on his cheek and preparing…
“forgive me…” I dug my claw on his face in the exact point where Estelle had done it; a second later he threw me away, of course from the pain and I was able to understand it.
“WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT HOOM?” what a nice image if I was still crying; what was left for me was that he could understood my actions.
“I’m sorry Lux, its just…I don’t want to see you suffer. Now you won’t have a constant reminder of Estelle giving you that scar…because I gave it to you now.” At least his stare and not another violent act told me he understood so that lifted my mood. “See now you can blame me for that Lux” Finally I was able to smile for the first time there “Because I love you too much to see you like this. I understand everything about Estelle and you being children so it’s unique. And…and I would be upset too if someone I loved did that to me, even I might have taken my life. But Lux, please please don’t ever think that way because you aren’t alone…you have me, because I love you Lux” And that’s when I surprised myself, I was able to talk calmly, smooth and honest…well I was aware that the subject was going to take me a little more time to process but now at least I knew and had an explanation of what had happened that night then they kissed… without knowing it I was already licking his wound because the guilty feeling reached me quickly.
“You are such an idiot sometimes to love a fool like me Hoom” Indeed maybe he was right but my love for him was even bigger; I warmed him up as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
“I know I can be an idiot sometimes, even Gil says that from time to time.” Just as I finished saying that phrase and the name of Gil, it was as if a button was clicked on Lux…I had the feeling that something bad was going to happen but why?
“What? Gil said that?” I simply nodded hoping the odd feeling was going to vanish but it was still there.
“Yes, Gil silly. He says that all the time when we are fighting, teasing each other, or when I am clumsy and he catches me.” No, the odd feeling didn’t vanish but now I think it came because of me mentioning Gil; however what was bad about mentioning him and the relationship we had? I was being honest with Lux and to tell you the truth I had found in Gil a special person I could trust no matter what.
“I see. I deduce that is very coherent Hoom since you and him are friends. It makes sense” I was glad he was understanding; maybe there won’t be any problems with the subjects but now, as I heard him talking there was something different with him that made him look cute; I couldn’t help myself but to laugh.
“What’s so comical Hoom? I don’t see why you are laughing at me? Do I look that dumb to you or something? Did I said something Dim-witted?” crap!
“No no no! I just have never heard you talk this way before. This entire time, as I listened to you, your vocabulary changed. You sound smarter and I found it cute. I just haven’t seen this side of you before Lux.” He made such a cute and confused expression that reminded me to Gil…
“its kind of funny really, you look like Gil right now when he is confused?” Yes, that was the best way to describe it; suddenly the odd feeling grew and I felt nervous.
“Is that a bad thing Hoom? Maybe you felt in love with someone who has a bad past and this is a side they have tried to keep hidden” Definitely that wasn’t the way I wanted him to understand my comments but it was too late now, his ears lowered “Maybe this person is not capable of love or deserve friendship.” And definitely I wasn’t expecting he would feel like that; it was simply a comment but now that I think about it maybe the situation wasn’t the correct to talk like that? Either way Lux needed to calm a little bit.
“I think I will manage Lux, because you and Gil are the same way” I kissed him on the cheek trying to making him feel better and being honest again “He has told me some things about his past and I except him, he is more then just my friend now. There is nothing he can say that will change my feelings for him, nor you Lux. I will stay by your side Lux, just like he is by mine. I am really glad to have him, I trust him a lot and love him as well.”
OK, I know that Gil’s subject was affecting Lux but I wasn’t prepared for what came after I finished that phrase; the odd feeling became anger.
“Oh…so that’s how you feel? Well that’s very convenient isn’t it Hoom. Umm, let me ask you, who brought me here?” I was nervous at that time but my mind was aware of how to handle it to a certain point.
“Gil did. Why? He carried you on his back and stayed by my side.” Yes Lux was angry but Gil had nothing to do in that aspect, I was telling him the truth; if it wasn’t for him and his support along with Rosie’s Lux would be dead.
“So let me get this straight, you love him am I correct?” Now Lux was misunderstanding everything…
“Well yes, but you see-”
“NO BUTS!” His roared only caused me to let my anger open; I was feeling as if I were a little child and he was scolding me…I truly hated it.
“You do or don’t you Hoom. Which is it? Because from the way you talk to him, it seems you really love him” at that time why would I want to lie to him?
“Of course I love him, he is very important to me” My voice was sounding kind of upset and the next thing I know is that I’m grabbing his shirt “It really isn’t what you’re thinking Lux. Please I love both of you!”
“No I’m NOT going to be another PUPPET HOOM! I can’t handle the hurt anymore. I rather see you happy with him then being dragged like a puppet on strings like Estelle did to me. You either love HIM or you love ME. Honestly, I have heard everything, how you talk to him, how you look at him endearingly. I hate it, I hate that fucking jackass. I rather be alone then deal with you being tagged along to that pretty boy. Hell why not Hoom, he seems you’re type…” Now Lux was the one who pushed the button on me; first he pushes me away…one thing I hate is that a man disrespects me that way, besides he too scolds me like a little girl? Then he compares me with Estelle saying I’m going to do something as turning him in my puppet? What was he thinking??? And finally…he was insulting Gil and not understanding that it was pretty similar to my previous situation…Yes I was upset now but still something in me tried to calm him down and found a solution.
“I know EXACTLY what I am saying Hoom. ‘I already trust you a lot Gil’ does that ring a bell?” Hell it does Lux now stop please!
“I refuse to be another puppet and if you love him, then at least tell me so you can spare me more heart ache. Ha ha ha, they say when it rains it pours, well isn’t this ironic?” He was reaching my limit…
“Lux, we are only friends, he’s my best friend Lux nothing more. I love him like a brother!” why did I take his arm? Just to feel how he got rid of me once again and feel even angrier..
“Don’t give me that bullshit! I know what you are doing; you are like everyone else when I was a kid. You will use me to get what you want. I am not that dense Hoom. You are using me to keep yourself in a relationship but when the time is right, boom, you will leave me hanging here and run off with Gil. DAMN IT! Gil this, Gil that, I…I think its time for me to teach him where his damn place is.” Next thing I know is that he throws me to the floor again as some sort of object and says “Don’t try to stop me Hoom.”
That was it.
I let my anger slip off. He was too stubborn and proud to understand it but what hurt the most was that he had rejected my feelings towards him in that manner…saying I was going to use him…. DAMN IT!!! I was tired of it….and now he was going to go get Gil…
He was going to get Gil!! I let my anger in a second place as I tried to stop him.
“LUX STOP THIS! THIS IS A MISUNDERSTANDING!! LUX PLEASE STOP!” too late… the elevator was close and Gil was going to pay for something he wasn’t guilty. I ran like a maniac through the stairs and was able to arrive to the floor just to see Lux approaching to my friend.
“LUX STOPIT NOW!!!”
And it was too late; Lux shot the door and the screaming began. Everyone panicked and I wasn’t able to tell anything apart from feeling cold and sparkle at the same time as well as hearing noises from punches coming from both sides… Both bloods scents where on the air and everyone was panicked.
“HON!!! HELP ME OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!!!!” My voice sounded angry and worried but Hon understood at the moment and it took us two attempts with our horns to open the door. As soon as my eyes saw the scene in which Lux was directing a punch full of electricity towards Gil, my body didn’t doubt it and finally stepped in front of the Glaceon receiving the Luxray’s punch.
And it hurt a lot! I felt my head dizzy and blood coming from my head but my face turned towards Lux in a quick way and stared at his shocked or surprised face; it was enough!!!! I wasn’t going to stop.
“What?! Are you going to continue punching me and throwing me away like you just did? Or are you going to put your damn pride away and listen for once??!!!” he kept in silence so I continued “ Fine. Then if you want to take your wrath against someone that would be me not him!” I pointed to Gil who was also giving me a strange face “Gil is not guilty about anything… and Yes! I love him but you must be aware there are different kinds of love in this world…for instance you and Estelle; what would happened if I had acted like you did without hearing anyone huh?? I bet you had stopped me, and yes I know things are different between you right now but try to put yourself in my shoes….and don’t you dare to touch him again!!!!” I growled and he finally talked being as angry as me.
“What Hoom, are you trying to threaten me?!” He growled too.
“You tell me!! Think about your worst nightmare and I’ll be sure to make it real!!” I was going to leave the room at that moment but he caught my arm and tried to say something; however at the same time I got rid of his hand.
“Don’t touch me!!” I stepped some steps away from him and continued “You know what’s the worst thing? After all you have done I still love you so much that my heart hurts…I hope you will be able to understand it one day; the question is that if there is going to be someone who will wait until you are ready to do so.” I gave him a cold look full of pain as I finally stepped out of the room.
“FINE!! Go away!!” I ignored him as I turned again but to face Gil.
“I’m sorry; remember you are in a hospital; don’t do anything stupid.”
“The same goes for you…” I gave him a nod and exited the hospital noticing humans were too scared to do something about it; great, now we had returned to the previous state making us look like animals…
My body finally stopped when it arrived to the beach…great!! My anger materialized in continued flamethrowers that were directed to the ocean. Fortunately there wasn’t anyone in that part and when I finished with the attacks I simply laid on the sand, under the rain…at least it wasn’t sunny.
But why? Why did things turned out like that? After everything we said to each other..After thinking I had reach a new level in knowing him…then why?
Because you know you reached your limit
Yes…I’m aware of that and I’m not sure if I can continue like this…
Then don’t continue…it would be painful but maybe staying alone os your best option…
Staying alone? Indeed it was an option…and if things were going to continue like this, then maybe… who was i fooling I knew it was something impossible for me to do....
“S-sis?” My face turned automatically to Hon who was away from me by meters of distance.
“Why don’t you step forward?”
“I…I’ve never saw you like that…” My voice was still cold and so it hit me.
“I’m sorry Hon…”
“How are you feeling? Did you calm down?”
“You tend to calm me down…” It was true, I couldn’t take my anger with Hon…
“Then what about if we return? If you stay outside with this rain you know what will happen…” I knew but rain was nice…
What about Gil?
Crap! What happened?
I stood up and got near my brother as we slowly returned.
“Did they calm down?” I asked
“I’m not sure, Gil told me to search for you and well I wasn’t sure where you were so…”
“its fine.. lets return and see how things went ok?” I hugged him closing my mind to any negative feelings and tried to just focus in the smell of wet soil and the sound of the rain. However when the hospital became nearer and nearer my body began to react against it like simply don’t wanting to enter and face him again…but at the same time I wanted to know how Gil was. I hugged Hon tighter and we get to the information point noticing the one who was there was the nurse who attended me before.
“Umm hi…” as soon as she saw me she was scared but then calm down. “What happened?”
“They stayed in Lux’s room for a while but then Gil left”
“Did he say where he was going?”
“Well I heard him saying something about leaving a mansion if that made Lux happy”
My heart literally dropped…Gil was leaving…in part for my fault…
“Hon you-you stay here I need to find him!” I yelled as I exited the hospital once again.
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Umm I hope you liked it?? :D? hehe a new side of Hoom maybe? Umm yes *runs away*
