Um hi there everyone!! as the title says...this post is kinda crappy...Don't expect many things from it...Rally is basically every post Hoom was included without many intelligent information so if you dont want to read I dont blame you *shrugs*
Thanks for mantaining Hoom in the storyline! so basically here's her upload ok? umm enjoy? yeah I guess... o-o umm if you thought Hoom was having mood swings then this would be even worse!
Ummm Im currently taking decisions with Lun haha...meaning with that im still trying to figure out if I can handle two characters or not XD soo deal with me and im sorry im this late with writting anything...
-Hoom
I thanked my mind to be able to concentrate only in what was happening; more subjects mixed together would mean not an emotional breakdown like the one I already had but also a mental one.
"You're right on that point Hoom. I did love her and the reason for that is because we were children. After she was taken from me, my memories were erased so I have had no type of loving affection for over 12 years between a man and a women. I can't say that I understand love yet because I don't. But when I was with other women, none of them made me feel the way I do when I am with you." Lux words had sense on them, but still I had mixed feelings about….a lot of things that were going on that same day.
“What about Estelle though? How is that any different then Gil?” Then he keeps in silence, which made me confused, more because of his final answer.
“Estelle means nothing to me anymore…I don’t love her.” Lux was being honest, I could notice that, but still….if that was the case then why was our relationship like this? We were having a lot of problems which were making me think that the best option if we continued like this was to arrive to extreme measures? NO definitely no, I was sure I wouldn’t be able to do something if it meant losing him forever….
“Then, what's wrong with us?”
"I....I...don't know Hoom. I just know that I am jealous of him...seeing you with him...it hurts...." Damn it…again Gil was bring on the subject; for a moment I thought I was going to react in a strange again but then something Gil told me along with what I felt for the Luxray next to me, made me calm down and take things the best possible way.
“Jealous? Why jealous? Because I talk to him? I go to him because of things I can’t simply tell you?”
“Why Hoom? Why can't you ever come to me? You never do...and when you do come to me you evade if anything was wrong. I hate that, I'm your boyfriend and yet you never open up to me. You either go to Hon, which I understand he is your brother, or Gil whom appears to be the better man for you since obviously I am not living up to your standards!” Nice, now he was getting angry because I was being honest; well maybe I spoke the words in the wrong order or he simply didn’t understand them the way I did. Surprisingly, my calm was still on the air.
“It's not like I don’t want to open to you; in fact I think you too haven’t open up to me; well not until now that I was finally able to understand better. Anyway I talk to Gil to ask for advice with things about you, how I’m I suppose to do so if I ask you? At least it doesn’t work for me like that...Besides, the one feeling she is not achieving your standards is me”
“Are you kidding me Hoom? Would I have fought your brothers if I didn't give a damn about you? Hell I even spoke to your mother and told her if she ever showed her face around the mansion that I would fight one on one with your dad. I wouldn't put myself out there if I didn't care damn it!” wasn’t I telling you the same thing before?? Then why are you getting pissed? Seeing him like that was getting me desperate too but something inside me made me keep the cool the best way I could; nothings was going to work if we both behaved like that; either he calmed down alone or I tried to do so.
“Then why can't you understand you’re the only one for me? You don’t have to be jealous of anyone...” I said grabbing his hand and looking at him into the eyes; it is said that sometimes, a sight is enough to understand.
“Then be open with me Hoom, come to me when you need a shoulder to cry on, to talk, or just need a hug. At least make me feel that you want to be with me because if you don't just tell me. I don't want to live through what Estelle did.” NO, seeing him like that…impossible; however it hurt he felt like I was doing the same…
“Am I really making you feel like that? Because I’m really trying my best too you know?....and please don’t make me repeat again how much I care for you and how much do I want to be with you.....” It was decided, if we couldn’t come up with a solution after this then…no matter how much it hurt…
“I know...I know I am jealous, it’s part of my nature because........I never was included as a child so watching from the sidelines I envied everyone.” Lux began to cry, which let me know and realize we truly wanted to be with each other. “Hoom, I want more then anything to be with you, and I will work on my flaws and do my best to be a better Luxray for you, even if you could do better.” If we both put from our sides…it was going to be fine; my fingers took his tears away
“I'll try my best to improve our communication, because I too want us to have the relationship we deserve....don’t you think so?”
“I do....”
“I think we have arrived to an agreement then.” That just sounded as if we were signing some kind of document…perhaps was I too formal? I didn’t want to worry about anything else anymore…
“I want you to be open with me too because I know you have been through a lot of things but still I'll be here for you, I wont stop loving you...never... but I’m not sure how else should I can prove those feelings toward you...”
“Just be yourself Hoom, that’s why I fell in love with you. I know every relationship will have battles, and this is no exception but I do want to grow stronger with you Hoom.” Before I could reply he continued with something truly shocking for me “You are more important to me, you are the only family I have other then Shupple and even Xio for that matter. I honestly can't describe how much I care about you because words a lone are not enough. I just know this, I want to be with you, put a ring on your finger, have children with you, and eventually die with you after a long fulfilled life....” It took me some seconds to actually realized what he was saying and seconds later I found myself smiling, truly smiling.
“Then what you said applies for both of us; this is the first time I've ever felt like this towards someone...I too want to spend my life with you Lux...” IT took me some more seconds to continue without looking like a stupid “Lux, I desire the same things. I want to be married to you because you make my life so much more interesting and fun, I want to travel with you and be your wife, I want to have a baby with you, and I too don’t fear growing old anymore because I could be with you.” I couldn’t be more honest than that; that’s what my heart was feeling the whole time from the moment we met on that stadium, to that very moment.
“I'm glad.” I was able to steal a smile from him…one of the things I loved the most and that somehow, thinking greedily, belonged to me; thinking about that wasn’t helping myself, so moments later I was sitting on his lap kissing his forehead; his cute reaction clicked a button and so I kissed him then lost my mind for what appeared to be a longer time than it actually was because, to tell you the truth it was beginning to felt as if we were one thing; our movements and what I felt made me thinks like that and I wouldn’t mind to continue showing my love to him that way if it wasn’t for a little intervention we had.
“I hope I’m not interrupting anything.” You think? Well we had plenty of time.
“Nope you are fine Shupple. We just finished talking, even though you still owe Gil an apology.” I got a little serious on the last part knowing that wasn’t going to happen since he probably was preparing to leave at the same time I was talking with Lux…
“Umm… Hoom, why don’t you join us for supper? Shupple and I are heading to the restaurant across the street and you should join us!” Raine words surprised me, more by the slight change in her personality; she seemed she had opened herself. Anyway I wasn’t going to reject that offer, more knowing that distracting myself would be the best at the moment.
“I would love too it sounds good.” I said as I hugged Raine, hoping it wasn’t akward from my part to do so
“Wait a blasted moment girls! What about me? I’m starving!”
“Well have fun here! We are going to have a girls night.”
“WHAT? But Shupple….hahaha don’t be cruel, at least bring me something back.”
“Nice try Lux, but those eyes won’t work on me.”
“Bye Lux!!!” The strange yet funny scene helped on the distraction and I can’t deny I was beginning to have fun; honestly I think I was too deep in my thoughts until Raine’s voice brought me again to reality.
“So…you and Lux are okay, now…?”
“Well, it was tough, but I think things are better now. But you’re talking more now, aren’t you Raine?” I couldn’t help myself of saying that because it made me pretty happy
“U-Um…am I? I g-guess I have to say something or I won’t learn…” She was so cute.
“It’s fine. You’re just the shy type, right?” she nodded as I continued “You can just talk as little or as much as you want. You’ll eventually get used to us. There’s no rush, right?”
“R-Right, Um, Hoom-san?” –San?? Too formal…..that was way too formal
“Just Hoom is fine” I said as we sat down and waited for Shupple.
“Alright… Hoom, do you happen to know an Absol named Aberius?” Raine suddenly asked making me remember that I truly didn’t know many things about him, just have seen him back at the mansion few times.
“Well, I don’t know him too well, but I have seen him around. Lux seems to know him a bit better than I do. Actually, I think Gil would know best. The two of them were talking at a meeting a few days ago…”
“Oh, I was going to ask if you thought he was happy here…” Where did that strange question came from? Now I was curious, perhaps Raine Knew him from before? But then…
“I’m sorry, I couldn’t say. He tends to always look a bit angry, why, is he your boyfriend, but he wanted to travel and you want him to come home?” That’s when I realized that she was probably feeling uncomfortable.
“Wh-What?! N-No, it’s not like that at all…! I…”
“Don’t worry, I was just joking. It’s fine if you don’t want to say, but maybe you should ask him?” By looking at her reaction you could notice she wasn’t prepared for doing so. “Okay, fair enough, I won’t pry, If you need to talk about something, though, you can talk to me, okay?” That was the least I could tell her right? Besides I felt that way towards her.
“O-Okay!”
I definitely wanted to know Raine better, as well as Shupple; in fact that precise moment I noticed that maybe I was being too close towards the other girls at the mansion and the one loosing was me, because just I had seen that day with Raine, they could be really sweet and good friends, also could simply be part of the family; well at least that’s when I thought when I remembered the gijinkas back at the mansion. Without knowing it, we finished in a restaurant along with Shupple and we were talking until a new gijinka who knew her arrived and presented himself as Arc….I must say he was a pretty handsome and nice Arcanine who took Shupple away….Well it appeared that they needed to talk about things so Raine and I gave them that space as they headed before us. At the time we returned to the hospital, the only thing that could be heard on Lux’s room was the shower and a yawn coming from Raine.
“You seem tired, have you gotten much sleep?” I guess you could say everyone was tired.
“I managed to get a little rest, but I stayed up all night trying to heal Lux…”
“Thank you for taking such good care of him while we were… well, you know…” I said as I hugged her trying to make her understand how much did that meant for me. “You should probably get some sleep, now.” She got comfortable on the couch and then almost killed me with the next question she made.
“Are you okay, though, Hoom?” Was I fine? Yes indeed there was a high percentage of me being fine but then I felt the weight of something on my skirt’s pocket and concluded there was still something odd.
“I’ll be fine… I’d like to stay awake for a bit longer when Lux comes out,” I said as normal as I could and then left to no particular place at the hospital.
For a strange reason I ended up in the same place I had talked with Lux before; of course it all felt different, everything was different indeed. I stood up and looked at the landscape before me and knowing I was going to let it go if I wanted to keep things in good terms with Lux; I couldn’t be selfish as much as I wanted and I had to learn that by the hard way.
I was not going to cry either because I already had, too much for the past days, I was bothered by it, so no more, besides, I promised it.
Flashback
“Hoom, before you go to talk with Lux….I….I need to tell you something, kind of important…” Nothing good came from seeing his serious and sad expression and less when he avoided my eyes and looked away.
“If its important, then let’s talk about it now” I told him not knowing that what he said after it was going to be something like that.
“Hoom…Im…Im going to leave the mansion”
Time was slow, minutes passed and we both keep quiet without saying anything.
The words kept echoing on my head and somehow, I didn’t process them all.
“…why…..” the only words I managed to say before feeling I wanted to cry again.
“I guess I’m just causing troubles in the mansion…or with some people….that’s the main reason.”
“Don’t tell me….Lux?...Is it because of him?” Well I mean, who else could it be if he got a long with everyone right?
“It’s no because of Lux…not completely…I mean, I don’t want to keep causing you troubles between you and Lux” Then it is because of him.
“Hoom, I don’t know what to tell you now…I think that’s the only way for you and Lux to settle things. The guy doesn’t like we spend time together, so to avoid any situation like the one from before again….the best things to do is that I leave the mansion.” I kept quiet for some time because, he had a point actually; even if I didn’t want to believe it, even if it hurt knowing he was right….there wasnty anything I could do.
“I don’t want you to go…more knowing is my fault…for being selfish I’m just ruining everything…”
“its not your fault Hoom, besides the only one leaving is me, and you’ll be fine Dear, you’ll be with Lux” First Sweetie…its my fault…and second…
“its my fault, if I’ve never met you then…I wouldn’t be ruining this….you could stay at the mansion………..and please, don’t be stupid by saying you are leaving as if a simple things…I won’t be fine”
“You regret having met me? Hoom, I’m not leaving because of something you’ve done, is just that I don’t want to keep seeing you fighting with lux all the time and of course you’ll be fine, you’ve always been fine, even before we met. You’ll be happy with Lux cause all your problems will disappear as soon as I leave.” He gave me a sad smile that didn’t help the situation at all; besides he misunderstood what I was saying.
“I don’t regret meeting you!! It was one of the best days of my life…besides if I regretted it, do you think I’d be feeling like this? You haven’t caused any problem! It …it was worst before, if it wasn’t for you and you being by my side, it would be the same….. you improved the situation so please don’t say all my problems are going to disappear with you leaving”
End of flashback
At the end, he couldn’t be stopped because I understood that it hurt him to leave and in part he was doing it for me…in part he was doing it because he was preparing to fight Gabriel and the two options were hurting for me; seeing him leave and knowing he was probably going to die. At the end I accepted it and we had a little trade; his necklace for my pin, as a promise he wouldn’t throw his life away so easily and besides another promise that if something happened to him, Lun and I were to take care of Cal….
I kept looking to nothing specially and decided to forcefully try to move on enjoying things as I could without letting anyone know about it. I wondered if he hadn’t leave…could things work out?
I got into the elevator and began to walk towards Lux’s room just to figure out it was full of people; I was introduced to Arc and then the entire atmosphere seemed so odd to me that I went outside; to tell you the truth I simply wanted to stay with Lux…just the two of us not talking in anything in particular. As I stepped outside and walked through the corridors, there was a crush between me and Raine who you could sense was worried and unbalanced.
“Whoa! Raine…? Why are you in such a hurry?”
“He… he’s in trouble…”
“Who?”
“A-Aberius-san… I have to… hurry back… What is today’s date?”
“Wh-what? Slow down Raine you’re not making any sense. What does the date have to-”
“Please, Hoom! I need to know…!”
“It’s March the 14th… Although it’s pretty late, so it’ll be March 15 in a couple hours.” Now I was anxious and worried too.
“Hoom… something big is about to happen. I need to go find Aberius. I… I need you to call the mansion and tell Lupe to get everyone as far away from the mansion as possible…”
“Wa-wait… I’m really confused right now, what’s going to happen? Is Abbie in danger or something?”
“I would have to say if everyone stays around him, then they will be more in danger…” Ok….what the hell was happening?
“But what about you? What are you going to do? If everyone else is in danger, then you…”
“I…I don’t really have a choice. I’m the only one who knows what’s going to happen, even though I’ve never seen it firsthand. I need to do something and I have to be there when it’s finished. If… if I can manage that is…” Ok I wasn’t going to let her leave alone after figuring out as much as doing so would risk her life
“No, if he’s going to become dangerous, then you should have some help! I’ll go-”
“No, you can’t! Please… just stay here at the hospital… And do not tell Lux or the others there. If he doesn’t get as far as this town, it would be better if they do not know…”
“But,”
“Please, Hoom, promise me you won’t come,” She sounded desperate; of course I didn’t totally agree to remain in the hospital but if you thought deeply about it then, my energy was not enough to keep fighting but still…… At the end Raine left and I tried calling the mansion but no one answered which made me think that the best was or either returning to it or waiting and call again.
Returning was the best thing to do and it wouldn’t sound so suspicious as long as I said good bye to Lux right? Before stepping in I could heard he and Arc where arguing about something related to Shupple but couldn’t catch the entire thing.
“Don’t you think you were a bit harsh Lux?” I said as I entered the room and embraced him from behind.
“No, just had to get the dog in him to understand Shupple’s feelings is all. But then again are you mad at me Hoom? I know you were outside the entire time.” At least he couldn’t notice my slight anxiety caused by Raine.
“No not really. But you didn’t need to insult our dog heritage, since you knew I was there. You are so mean sometimes kitty, just remember I know how to make you purr.” Now I was sitting on his lap being kind of seductive? Something was wrong with me and my mood swings but it was something you couldn’t control… Next thing I know is that I’m beginning to mess with his ears while enjoying the purring…him purring meant weakness for me too.
“Hoo…Hoom that isn’t fair….hehehehe….stop that….you know that’s my weakness…”
“So is this,” Then I started to lick them; now I was a curious girl who wanted to see his reaction and forget about problems for a while.
“HOOMY!!! STOP please…hehehe…stop!!! You make me look weak..!” weak? But if I was enjoying it….
“Okay okay hot stuff. Shouldn’t you get dressed?” I asked while standing up.
“Why should I? Don’t you like what you see? I think I am pretty sexy babe.”
Well I wasn’t going to deny that fact….Lux walked to grab a tank top and then it was the first time my eyes were able to actually detail his back…my fingers began to touch it without noticing.
“What’s wrong Hoom?”
“It’s just so sad, you are so handsome yet you bare so many scars on your back. I just wish they weren’t there.” Seconds later I was aware my comment was going to be misunderstood.
“Actually, I am not ashamed of them Hoom, I suppose what doesn’t kill me just makes me that much stronger.” Exactly, misunderstood comment meant a hurt Lux…
“THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR BACK! Lux, you are very secretive about your back because of these scars and…” I said while hugging him not really understanding why people still dealt with me.
“That is because you know many people frown upon unsightly things. Hoom, you of all people should know how it feels to be shunned, with scars like these people would not welcome me. Geez, even people stare at me with the one on my eye. Nevertheless, it doesn’t really bother me because I have you Hoom.” Yes it was confusing how people still dealt with me and accepted me in those kinds of states like the one I was in at the moment; there was Lux behaving so sweet after my comment.
“Hoom, do these scars make me less attractive to you?” was he an idiot? “Believe me Hoom, these scars represent my past and what I bared for so long to become the person I am. I survived elimination of my village and remember these scars represent my extended family I lost that day. They may never heal but even scars have their own beauty.” He was right; the only scar I had on me was the one made by my father few days ago, but thinking about it, I wanted it to stay there just to make me notice in weak moments, a clear message.
“Is that what happened Lux? Your village was destroyed? How long were you alone?”
“I think that’s enough for today, I promise tomorrow at the festival I will tell you everything and show you the real me!”
“Lux don’t make me tickle your ears.”
“I’m serious I will let you know everything that happened, I won’t back down on my promise.” He obviously didn’t want to talk about the subject he promised to tell me later…. and another thing….the real me? What did he meant with that…wasn’t him the real Lux? Better to see it by myself on the festival.
“I believe you. But why are you putting a tank top on? Are you going out?”
“Kind of, I need to go shopping today so would you mind helping me get this on since my arms are really still sore?” Shopping…really? Still he asking me help was kind of cute…
“Fine…get on the bed…” it didn’t took me a long time to help him. “How’s that?”
“Wonderful Momma Hoomy!” Ok as soon as I felt him squeezing my butt I embarrassed so badly; when my face turned to see him, it was pretty red but at the same time, I liked it
“Now Hoomy, I think it’s best if we sneak out of here so I can steal you away…”
“Wait what do you mean?”
“Well, I need to shop and you need to go back home and have a relaxing night before the festival. Besides I want you at your best tomorrow and all dolled up for me. Tomorrow is your day to be a queen because every day you are a princess in my eyes.” How was he able to come and say such sweet things from one moment to another? My face continued blushing as a smile drew on my face and we walked together through the hospital; I was going to have to prepare things for the festival later but since he mentioned Hon was going to pick me up to take me to the mansion then it was my chance to check out the situation with Abbie and Raine.
The time I was hoping came as we sat and talked about anything in particular, the fact of having someone holding me and being by my side made me truly happy, but as soon as my nose noticed Hon’s scent I nearly ran and tackled him, conscious that I was letting some whimpers out of me letting him know I was a little upset by him abandoning me but then happy to see he came back for me.
“Sis are you ready to head back?” He suddenly asked making me notice Arc and Shupple were there too; the entire atmosphere around them felt different but it wasn’t the correct time to ask since I really needed to head back to the mansion.
“Yup, but first…” I ran towards Lux , hugged him and gave him a little kiss “I am excited about tomorrow. Don’t worry I will find you and I can’t wait to see your new look.”
“As well as I?” Hon and I began to walk away along with Melody , unconsciously hearing the whole conversation that was going on.
“Hey Arc, why don’t you join us since we are heading back to the mansion? The big festival is tomorrow so all need to prepare and you should really meet the others there.” For a moment I almost slipped it out.
“That sounds good!” He said and we continued talking about a variety of things making me realize he really was a good guy.
“You and the cat? I guess oil and water really can mix.” I punched Arc on the shoulder just to play, however he was right; Lux was feline and I a canine; maybe another justification of the previous arguing?
“He's a good guy,”
"Yeah, I can tell"
We kept walking in silence until the gross yet interesting scent of blood filled, I believe, everyone’s noses. Talk about me and mood swings; I was worried for the members but still the scent didn’t disgust me at all…
“Should we see what’s happening at the mansion?” I asked hiding the strange mixture of feelings flooding to me; I got a nod from everyone so we started to approach cautiously just to encounter a shocking scene? Yes, Indeed a pretty shocking scene.
---------------//---------------
Umm hope you liked it! if no...then bleeeeh -_-...flashback was based on conversation Gil and Hoom actually had one day while I talked to kro....
what else what else....umm nop nothing... jaane guys Im suppose to be entering class soon
