i cant explain this special kind of sadness
the way it spreads to the core and right back out to the crust
this special sadness that keeps me waiting and more then anything longing
to one day reach happiness
somehow i love this special sadness
i'm so scared also because i'm afraid of missing it
of letting it fly away
i'm so scared of losing the sadness
its a special sadness that i just hope becomes
love
rather than
a dream

i seem to only Long for soul