Hey there! I am Fighter xaos though some call me.... *thunder crashes* Jerry. Anyway some of you may already know me as xaos.
I am chaos.
# it is a bottomless gulf where anything falls endlessly. This radically contrasts with the Earth that emerges from it to offer a stable ground.
# it is a place without any possible orientation, where anything falls in every direction.
# it is a space that separates, that divides: after the Earth and the Sky parted, Chaos remains between both of them
*“Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit”
*You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star.
*Chaos and Order are not enemies, only opposites.
*Out of chaos God made a world, and out of high passions comes a people.
Hey there, man I have quite a bit that's happened so I guess I'll just try and sum up
Still no money, which means no new computer. Lord, how I need a new computer
school is going meh.
This week I recorded episode 19 of my audio podcast. Next week is 20!
My video podcast is now on blip.tv! Reason I did this is because I had to delete older episodes on podomatic due to their storage limits.
I also re experienced some old school anime and cartoon shows over this week and during that time I remembered a very old anime based off a classic sci-fi book series. Ha, I don't want to mention what it is because I plan to write a fan-word for it. But if you pm me I'll say what it is making this pointless. HA HA HA! That's just how I am.
Oh, and this last part is a bunch of links. Basically about the stuff I mentioned up there. My blip.tv audio podcast
Computer I'm planning to get, the Mac Mini:
This last one is just eye candy.
So the day off today was good, waking up early... to find out I'm being slowly poisoned by that odorless, tasteless gas called CO or Carbon Monoxide. :( I don't know everything but I thank God that I'm alright.
Other than that I want to mention that Uncharted 2 comes out tomorrow and I already paid it off so all I have to do is pick it up.
Also want to mention that I have a new episode up of my podcast.
Another thing I want to mention is a very good episode of the daizenshuu ex episode that discusses the news story about the Dragon Ball manga getting pulled off of a Maryland school library because a mother saw it and was "disgusted" and called it "kiddy porn". They also discuss the upcoming Dragon Box and about the American dub fans getting angry that there's no Funimation dub audio track and I happen to agree with them but that's just me still though you should definitely give them a listen, I urge you to if you're a Dragon Ball fan. Among Dragon Ball fans these guys are very respected.
Hello all, if you happen to care that I'm alive I would like to let you all know I'm currently on a small break. Since I have no classes Fridays I have a 4 day weekend now instead of 3 day (which would be a usual one for me XD) So yeah I have time...
A million thanks and hugs for those who gave encouraging words to me about my grandmothers death. Thanks so much, especially on deviantart oddly enough, I was expecting the least there but in fact I got the most encouragement there and not here on myO and theO.
I'll do a more in depth post a bit down the road but in the mean time this post isn't for nothing I did a new vodcast! I haven't done one since early August, hope you like it. It's much shorter than the last two.
...and because I can't embed the podomatic player here I uploaded the vid on youtube just for you guys. But here's a bonus for you it's in HD on youtube. If you want to follow the vodcast go here: http://ikarivod.podomatic.com/
Unless you're seeing this post exactly when I put it up, the video should be done processing.
Well, in my two (or three?) weeks of absence I finally have some time to at least update you guys on what's going on. Usually I don't care but for this journal I respectfully ask that if you watch me, you read this journal. The school year didn't really start off on a good note I got kicked out of my physics class for not having the right math, I talk with my advisor and he says if you don't have the prerequisite it's up to the professor and that he used to teach physics. I tell the professor that and she's like "it's only up to me if the issue is overcrowding" and then the physics department head (who started it all by randomly walking in and looking at transcripts) who didn't even bother to hear why I was allowed to take it anyway or anything they just assume they have the power to do so and kicked me out. But now I have an easier schedule, three day weekends are back AND I have one class on Wednesdays. I now take History Of Modern Art instead of physics (which personally I think fits better with what I'm doing instead of physics) That's the abridged version of what's happened by the way. Something happened just today that has taken precedence in this post.
...My grandmother has died, cancer was the culprit. I had a long day today due to school (Tuesdays I go from 8:30 to 4) and during school I was thinking "wow today is really pleasant it's so weird, I feel good and none of my classes were full of work, matter of fact it was all just lectures, I don't like it usually a good day like this is punctuated with something bad" and lo and behold on my way home I learn of my grandmother's death. First comes disbelief then it starts to sink in, then I start to cry silently. I haven't even seen her in four years, I never got to say goodbye. I feel so many regrets. My next art will be in dedication to her and this journal is in dedication to her as well. The title of the journal is Gaelic for "I love you" my grandmother's side of the family is where I get my Irish from which I didn't even know about until I was 16. Though I should've expected something with her natural red hair and everyone else on the other sides of the family being Puerto Rican and having either brown or black hair. So to my Seanmháthair, tá grá agam duit
But if you pm me I'll say what it is making this pointless. HA HA HA! That's just how I am.
