Hey there! I am Fighter xaos though some call me.... *thunder crashes* Jerry. Anyway some of you may already know me as xaos.
I am chaos.
# it is a bottomless gulf where anything falls endlessly. This radically contrasts with the Earth that emerges from it to offer a stable ground.
# it is a place without any possible orientation, where anything falls in every direction.
# it is a space that separates, that divides: after the Earth and the Sky parted, Chaos remains between both of them
*“Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit”
*You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star.
*Chaos and Order are not enemies, only opposites.
*Out of chaos God made a world, and out of high passions comes a people.
"Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene
Im begging of you please dont take my man
Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene
Please dont take him just because you can
Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, jolene
He talks about you in his sleep
Theres nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, jolene
And I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you dont know what he means to me, jolene
Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene
Im begging of you please dont take my man
Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene
Please dont take him just because you can
You could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
Hes the only one for me, jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, jolene
Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene
Im begging of you please dont take my man
Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene
Please dont take him even though you can
Jolene, jolene"
Dear I've been feeling so sad. -_- The internet has just become too depressing. I've honestly started to feel like welcoming death. Also I'm not a chick but yeah I've felt like what's described in the song before. Been wondering if there's anything worth living for. Love, that's worth living for but I've no one that I love and loves me back. Then I felt like dying again I was thinking "everything I've done is so mediocre at best, a worldwide audience either says your nothing or doesn't care." If all I can do is middle of the road what's the point? Then I started to think ok I don't have another human to help me and vice versa but, there is one that loves me always. Then I read the Bible and the passage I read was right on the money, exactly what I need to hear and instantaneously I've felt peace, the spirit of God works fast ya know.
Sorry if ya don't believe in God, like Meagan said in one of her posts "not my problem"
Also as for the other human stuff I'm not referring to friends, or even family so I'm basically by myself even though I live with my parents still and I barely see my friends anymore and as for internet friends well I've never even seen your faces let alone met ya O_o so... guess what I'm talking about.
Word of warning the f-word is said quite a bit. Not by me mind you! But I put that explicit tag for that reason I know my co-hosts might not always have a clean mouth but I don't want to have their words minced.
If I ever get an anime made I would love to see someone make an AMV with this song about my character Linda
Happy Easter if ya celebrated it!
THANKS MUCH FOR THE KIND WORDS AND ALL LATELY AS WELL!
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You know usually I'm trying to find out who unsubbed me but this time I'm trying to figure out who subbed me. O_o I can't tell. I don't see any new faces (avis) there. Also I feel better after digging around to see that all those unsubs actually come from people deleting there account well, I'm sad they left but it makes me feel better that it wasn't because of me. ^^; That is except 3 people. I won't say who they are because let's say a lot of my friends are their friends as well still. But I will say it is hard to swallow because these people were some of my closer friends here one of them even drew a certain OC of mine and all. I'm not going to stay hung up on it but it is another thing that hurts my heart so, especially looking at my most recent dedications to one of them seeing the nice comment I go O_o What did I do to make one of my oldest friends... ah forget it just venting that out forget about it.
Did you know that on top of the tablet I also bought a Wii and a HDTV? I quite like Super Mario Galaxy but the main reason I bought it was for the Virtual Console. All those old games for the older Nintendo System, AND for the Turbografx, Sega Genesis, Sega Master, and just added now, Commodore 64 and Arcade? I had to get it! Wait why do you ask that it took me this long to get it. -_- Seriously, you ought to know those things were always sold out back then when I had the money or I they had them and I didn't have the money. But nowadays Wii's are in stock in all the game stores I go to and I had the money now so... yeah.
I'm not one to do April Fool's jokes, for me today is more my cousin/kinda sister (my mom practically raised her) and also today I'm accepted on iTunes (what is that was an April Fool's joke O_o) Anyway you can subscribe to the podcast on iTunes by clicking here
Also something I just want to mention is... I'm so slow I just found out that Mask was killed last month in a car accident. Who's Mask? Well, Charles 'Mask' Lewis is the founder of TapouT clothing a clothing company geared towards for fans of MMA and MMA fighters. As my condolences for being slow to find this out I'm sending this link to information on his public memorial. http://punch.freedomblogging.com/2009/03/19/mask-memorial-service-on-april-14-at-crystal-cathedral/3935/
