I know exactly how you feel, and it is all from experience too. Life can be pretty tough - especially for guys, when it comes to women. Ive come to notice and learn that things in life happen for a reason and most of the time we cant explain it or how it feels. When i was younger, there were a few girls that i really thought i had a shot at getting close to and it possibly becoming more, but each time things led to nothing. Either the girl was interested in someone else, or she just wasnt interested in me. There are also times when i am at work, that i see beautiful women walking around with guys that arent worth a dime, and it leaves me to wonder why are the good guys like us are often left out in the cold. You are a good guy, and you are creative, friendly and one of the few awesome people that i have had the pleasure of getting to know in my life. I know it may seem that your friends or family dont care about how youve been feeling and what youve been going through, but i really believe that they totally understand what youve been going through, and that they know - because im sure they have gone through the same things in their lives as well. There are some things that people must face on their own i guess, but that doesnt mean they dont care for you. You are still young, and there is always tommorrow, so stay strong and dont let the little bumps in life keep you from reaching the ultimate goal of happiness :) Just keep your eyes open and know that im always here to help in any way that i can :) because you never know what tommorrow may bring :)

stay strong :)