More complaining and whining. I need to vent and get things off my chest because I spend all of my time in real life just bottling it all up and trying hard to be cheerful. If you don't want to read it, just ignore this post.

I'd like to say I've made progress this week, but things have just gone from bad to worse. There was a particularly bad incident with my family where Kelsey and Will had to comfort me, and I was borderline hysterical. I seem to feel exhausted all the time, to the point where I'm having trouble doing anything, and no matter how much sleep I get, it just wont go away. I've been trying to get to see a therapist or psychiatrist but as I mentioned in my previous post, I've had no such luck. I've tried multiple times just this week to get an appointment but I've gotten nowhere again. Honestly, I am trying so hard with things but it all feels like an impossible struggle and a fight I'm just not going to win, no matter what. I hope that I don't push any of you away, talking about these things, but I need to let my feelings out. I'm sorry for another depressing post.

Onto another, and much more important topic, I am extremely grateful for all of you, for being so supportive, and being such wonderful friends, and being constantly encouraging with my graphics and other things as it honestly keeps me going, knowing that I might be good at one thing, at the least. Knowing that I'm loved, despite all my problems, makes me feel like I can keep going, despite the pain. My own family cannot love me, but I have so many wonderful, amazing, kind friends, that it doesn't matter. Thank you all, so much. <3