Nnngh.
Today has been very long.
Up at normal school time for Solo & Ensemble today.
SO. FREAKING LONG.
I'd go insane if I didn't go to school, I think.
I mean, I can grow pretty bored easily, apparently. At least when I just stay on the computer. I'm sure I'd entertain myself pretty well with a TV. CSI AND PSYCH AND LAW AND ORDER YAHHHH.
Saw the final Psych episode yesterday and spazzed about it on dA.
SERIOUSLY. THAT WAS REALLY SUSPENSEFUL.
I get really easily sucked into things. My emotions are pretty easily played with TV shows and movies, LOL. I freaking cried at the movie Click.
And I started to cry when watching Parenthood this week while eating snack after school. I should do an entirely separate post on that and how I really think it fits with my life.
I think the part that hit me the most was the family with the autistic child. Just how incredibly distraught the mom was, and how the dad was struggling handling it...
My brother has ADHD. I've always meant (deeeeeep in my head) to ask my parents how they feel about it. Particularly my mom. It feels a bit unfair of me... but I feel like she's always wanted the picture perfect, well-behaved family she can brag about. She gets really endlessly annoyed with Mattmoose (my nickname for that dork lmfao) at times, and I do as well. But... /sigh
THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE A STUPID RANT ABOUT MY INNER FEELINGS, SELF. THAT IS WHY YOU SHOULD HAVE A DIARY.
But I like feedback. And I realized that perhaps I'm a bit starved for attention sometimes. At least in my house. I sometimes think I act a bit too wacky at school with my friends to get them to laugh. That's my attention fill.
AHAHA I FEEL PHILOSOPHICAL TODAY.
SO-CRATES, MAN.
EXCELLENTTTTTT! *guitar riff*
blehhhh I need to draw more. It makes me feel very happy and loose.
My emotions are like a freaking blender or something lately. I'm fine sometimes, then I think too hard about stuff and I feel a bit down. I'm not bipolarrrr /sob
I JUST NEED CITRIS, MAN. Winter blues are driving me crazy.
Anywho, Solo & Ensemble.
Did my piano solo, got a 2 (1 is the highest) and I'm not very satisfied with it. FIRST PERSON TO GO IN THE MORNING IS ANGNGDJFOELKRMW.
Went to karate. Was extremely emotionally tight after a man rolled his ankle. It's really hard to see an older man in pain. REALLY HARD. :|
Went back to play for Jazz Lab. Also a two. We were pretty sucky compared to the group after us. Dear gods, BCHS has an AMAZING program. And it was their Jazz I. We're Jazz II at a worse school.
Watched the BCHS jazz I. Ate pizza. Talked with a dude awkwardly.
Played sax quartet. WE WERE SO INCREDIBLY PUMPED AND AWESOME, YOU GUYS.
BUT. BUT. BUT. I'm just so MAD.
Frosh group got the same piece as us four weeks earlier. Sucked ten times more than we do. AND GOT TO STATE.
BUT WE. FREAKING. DIDN'T.
Because we had different freaking judges.
SO. FRUSTRATING.
We worked so hard. I literally put blood and sweat into that thing. No tears. But a lot of blood. And some sweat. Mostly blood. From my tongue.
So all in all, not. pleased.
But then I went to Barnes & Noble and read some manga for the first time in a loooong time. Made me happy.
Weather still sucks, but I'll deal. At least it's not snowing--rain is better.
Gonna read some manga online, listen to Disney music, and do homework tonight.
And post some art, hopefully. Still don't know if I'll color it... it's a traditional trade (from dA), and I bite at coloring traditionally right now.
OH. AND I WANT THE NEW POKEMON GAME.
BUT I HAVE NO DS.
BECAUSE I GAVE IT TO MY BROTHER.
MY AWESOMENESS PAINS ME.
