Well, not much was happening today.
Woke up and felt totally hammered which was hilarious since I went to bed at a normal time. I had a dream about flying yellow open-backed cars and shooting an evil condor above Hawaiian islands.
I've had the most funky dreams since seeing Inception.
It makes me want to check out those 'dreams' books like Cherryshock mentioned waaay earlier this year. I checked one out but it was due back before I even read much...
Was listening to Mugglecast about various Harry Potter things since my love has been growing like ivy. I also watched video clips of the park and the Singing Frog choir. If I can't work there someday while I'm in college.... I might cry.
I want to go there so bad it's insane.
And now, onto more seriously stuff.
TwoFacedLullaby and all that drama was at least a year ago. I don't remember much of it, I wasn't really around and if I did notice it, I certainly didn't want to get too involved with it or I can't remember squat.
Mostly the 'can't remember thing'. I have horrible memory.
I don't know what to really believe anymore.
Gemma, you've been a great friend on here. I really have appreciated a lot of what you've done, and I've had so much fun conversing with you. I don't want what we've been through to have been a lie.
I just don't know what to think.
I feel so goddamn over dramatic when I say that, but it's true.
It's not like I have an insane amount of friend that I never know what to do with in real life. I have a sizeable group and I'm happy with it. I have a nice size of online friends, too.
None of my real life friends have ever flat out lied to me.
I don't want to believe my internet friends have, either.
I know what happened was in the past, and people can change.
Just the degree of how much they change varies so much.
People who were alcoholics easily can fall back into if they drink. It's the same for smokers. Compulsive gamblers... compulsive liars...?
Anyone who goes out right and bashes Cherryshock will have to answer to me, too. She brought this to my attention, and I'm glad she did. I didn't see SomeGuy's article until just about twenty minutes ago.
And if there is ANYONE on this site I trust, it's him. He has a lot of my respect. As do all the mods.
Adam tops my list.
I don't want there to be a lot of drama here. It's kinda like my 'safe haven'. There is drama up the wazzoo over on dA about some claims dA in 'homophobic' and ughhh whatever. They kind of are, kind of aren't. It's just crazy.
I don't want the other site I love to be in drama, either.
Tegakie doesn't count since there is always drama and shit there lmfao.
I don't want to get caught in any crossfire, and I don't want Gemma or Lauren getting crucified, either.
Gemma, I really do like you. I REALLY do. And I want to believe you.
I just feel like I need more proof.
I think the rest is in the hands of the mods...
Wow, haha, I could so not be a mod since I cannot handle trolls and shit like I've seen running RAMPANT on dA. Whoooohooo boy.
Plus I feel like you have to be old enough to have experience the world and the people in it and all those situations to be able to mod properly. That's why I respect them so much.
The internet can be such a whacked out place. I mean, look at Double Rainbow dude.
