Ugh... I hate to say this guys, but I think I've gone into a little bout of depression. Trust me, it won't last long... But... I still feel pretty down right now. I just wanna wallow in my own pity for a little while. Or get out and do something to take my mind off of it.
Okay, I guess I should fill you in on the details, then, no?
You guys obviously know that I've been gone for two weeks, right? Well, I've really wanted to join the golf club this year, but practices started on the 11th, and I missed a LOT of stuff. So I come home, and immediately try and get in contact with the coach and such so I can join the team. He was the first one to actually send me an email, and we sent a few things back and forth.
But starting yesterday, my mom has put a ton of pressure on me to figure things out for myself. She INSISTS that I have some kind of extracurricular activity, which would have been golf. I was definitely going to join some clubs, but she wasn't able to get that through her head. AT ALL. So we've been arguing a lot, and the same goes for me and my dad. He pressured me into calling the coach (which was extremely embarrassing and hard for me to do) to get more info about golf. I also had to call one of my friends several times in one day to get info.
So after I get ahold of the JV coach, he says he'll talk to the main coach and they'd call me back later. So I sit around, and finally my dad gets annoyed that they haven't called, despite the fact it's been about four hours, so he calls the cell phone of the JV coach (who's name I actually don't know...) and leaves a message. And I had to set up a way to get to golf this morning, as well as a way to get home. I did that quite easily with my friend, because my dad is out of town with my brothers and my mom is at work. (There has also been a lot of other friction between such issues as babysitting, taking care of the animals properly, and ME having to get brand new locks, while my brother gets my old ones so I have to learn NEW combos for high school.)
Anywho, this morning, I get up and check my email, just incase the coach sent me something, because he never ended up calling back last night. Well, yeah. There's an email. Saying that I wasn't able to join the team, the season was over and all of that.
I'm not too frustrated about not being able to join the team... Actually, I am. But I feel like... I dunno, I was lead on by him or something. The main coach was the first person to send me the email and kept asking me questions and such. He should have KNOWN that I wasn't going to be able to join the team, but he dragged it out. And I was all ready for today's practice, I even woke up early, had an outfit ready, had a ride... I even had to turn down a babysitting job for practice.
But no. And right after I read the email, I have to call my friend to say she doesn't have to pick me up. And I'm home alone, so it's even more strange. But thank god she didn't pick up, because I would have broken down. Right after I called her, my dad called back from an early call I tried to tell him. And... I kind of broke down. Whoops. :P
Okay, I think I'm almost over it. I just wanna wallow a little longer. And sorry I had to take it out on you guys. I hate loading my problems onto other people, I just needed to let that out. Thinking about school starting next week is stressing me out enough.
And I'm pretty achy and tired now, too. I have this giant cut on my right leg that I don't know how it got there. My right thumb nail is half on and half off... Yesterday when I was biking to a house to babysit, I got off the bike and my foot went right into a VERY prickly rosebush, so my toes are aching. And I had karate, so my muscles are aching. Good news though, I got my gold belt!
All right. I'm done ranting. Sorry you had to read this giant ol' thing. I'll hopefully have some work up that I've been promising, soon, 'kay? No worries, guys.
Besos! (I'm taking a page from Brunette here by sending you all 'kisses')
EDIT: IMPORTANT! IMPORTANT!
If there is anyone willing to help me create a KH fan character, would you mind helping me add some details? I've been working on a character mentally for the past three days, but I don't know all that much about KH 'cause I've only read the mangas. And I'm not even that far... Anyone willing to help? :D
