welcome dear stranger! by a twist of fate, you have stumbled across this tiny world of mine.
I am quite an odd person at times, and at others, totally predictable. Shoot me an PM if you wanna chat, or comment- I always reply to comments & PMs!
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hello hello, it is time for that sporadic update that I make every now and then! I wonder if there is a word for something more than sporadic, but not quite dead or gone? also have just realized i completely missed the whole of '16 here.... says a lot.
I will always think of the times I had here though. sometimes i'll just be going about my day and the O will pop into my brain! I even sometimes log in when feeling nostalgia, though the most I usually do is click through people's profiles, whether dead or alive. (and make a post every now / then)
after all, the otaku.com is where I first opened photoshop. it was the people here who pushed me to keep going, and I don't think it would be remiss to say that in the time I was active here was the time I learned the most and improved the fastest with photoshop and partially illustrator.
life? scary, terrifying, many big choices ahead. but always exciting and I know that i'm lucky to have these choices. it's just crunch time, crunch week now- degree show looms up close and terrifyingly exciting. looking back to like four posts ago, when I first started doing these yearly things, I talked of someone snowplowing into my life.
I don't want that anymore. not in the sense of being companions or important- but I never want to have my emotions be so dictated by the whims of one person, and looking back.... my god, that's embarrassing. I hope that when i read this post next time, I will have evolved and made what I hope are the right choices of a multitude of (equally) terrifying options.
also wow, rr of 2015, second year of uni? damn girl, if you aint optimistic!! though thankfully dear god, the last year of uni has been so so so good- better than both first years. I finally pulled my head out of the sand and I kinda regret not doing it earlier- i think i've missed out on some amazing potential. like... 3rd year feels that the money is finally worth it...
unfortunately a little too late, but I can only try to compensate where I can. I throw my mortarboard in the air on july 19- ironically my 22nd birthday (whoops, guess you know my age now lol). I hope that maybe all my dreaming and aspiration will have sorted themselves out. Or not... who knows?
for the one in the future, I hope you made the right choice for the one to come after you and for the ones who will cease to be. but never get hung up in the past. you made the choice- you are the one who's obligated to see it through!
closing this longer and more rambly and less grammatically-inclined post of the year with the reminder that I still read manga and anime and otakuness is still part of me, and will always be!
thank you for reading this if you are not me and made it this far.
signing off,
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helloooo!
back again for my usual 1 year posting hahah
i swear im still alive!!
I'm @ my second year of uni & it's been super challenging, super fun
lots to do, lots to learn
(maybe a bit toooooo much to do..........)
but thats a story for next year when I develop hindsight hahah
theO seems so small compared to now- not that it wasn't large when I was an active member!
I suppose its a matter of perspective? I feel like it is.
gonna hopefully meet up with someone who i met through theO irl, so thanks for that, theO!
nice to know you're still helping me haha
signing off again for another year :)
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whoops I seem to have a penchant for updating this world around this time of the year lmao
so, my new once-a-year-thing... hmm where to begin?
well first off, it's 10:35PM in london (where I've just moved to, about two weeks ago). I'm elbow....? knee-deep in my work for my new undergrad degree, and since I'm a fresher i've yet to actually get sucked in properly yet. it's happening though :)
emotionally, I've met so many new and varied people in the past two weeks- it is legitimately staggering; I think my brain's definitely a little bit, if not VERY fried right now. I haven't had anyone snow plow their way into my life the way that happened about two posts ago, but what the hey, I reckon I'm already in a fabulous place, without it.
plus time will definitely tell if the people I have my eye on are meant to be or not (WINKWONKWINK)
I'm still stressed but tbh I have accepted that will be an eternal part of my life, with me choosing a BA in design for my career path (please hope I get a job upon graduation please u_u)
I'm still talking to people from theO, but they are few and far.... also, I've joined the anime society in my uni so theO still lives on eheh~ overall, I have to say right now, I'm not too stressed, and I'm quite happy! it is rather hard finding my feet in a new place, but its early days still, so I'm just going to let the good times roll~
I'm reading through all these earlier posts, and they make me smile. i'm not that kid, but at the same time I am! I do wish I could go through these times again.... but I also don't want to. i love hormones, really ha.
overall, i'm doing good, miss the days where I used to logon theO; but I also know that's part of life and I wasn't always meant to be on here. :) hopefully the choices I've made are the right one in terms of my career and making my own way in the world!
all the best, everyone
(also please check out the umbrella revolution happening in my hometown- it is an important issue close to my heart!)
~rr off
I'm an IB student. IB is hell, with all the studies.
I go to bed at 1AM daily, with incomplete work. And I'm not even in college yet.
And I've been through an emotional wringer, and it's forced me to grow up so fast.
Hate it when someone you used to love turns into a person you absolutely dread seeing.
terrible feeling haha
Doubt I'll be back on here anytime.
My style is too different now.
Maybe in the future. Too many memories to delete this.
WIll completely understand if you all unsub me :)
Don't worry! And on a less negative note, I'm making up a portfolio, take a look below~
Graphic design, is till afterall, my dream job.
It's the most funny and worst time to be typing this almost reflective blog post.... 12:25AM.
pardon any weird things that spew forth from my mind as you read this post (and any spelling errors too sorreh)
so recently I've been pretty much MIA in the otaku world. I'm still a creative person, but my creative energy is far more focused; less on anime and japanese culture and much much more on more.... personal things; not to say that anime isn't something so personal to me. an example would be perception of differing texts and their language; I explored this in my school work, and...
it was hugely satisfying. the most difficult thing I've ever done, but hugely satisfying.
...I must be machostic.
and this has affected my otakuness. yes, I still do read manga, and I don't think I'll ever really stop that.... but it excites me less. much less. I went on minitoyko a few hours ago to try and find scan inspiration to make wallpapers. (I still love graphics and wallpapering is a good way to keep my skills sharp)
nothing.
I was clicking mindlessly, and art that would've attracted me longer really does.
I don't understand. maybe it has something to do with my life?
ah now my life. as I sit here typing, I'm just grinning away.
life is... whoah! it's gone and exploded.
the miracles of some initiative.
Maybe that's why I haven't had anytime at all, to talk to all of my online friends; my IRL friends, exams and new responsibilities have taken up a lot more of time than before.
also, someone has literally snowplowed into my life and taken residence in it... but I don't mind. :)
so in a nutshell, I've literally have a life that has... well exploded; for lack of a better word. but eh, 1AM.
I guess I'll just have to wait and see. who knows what'll happen haha.
~RR OFF!~~
