Kinda Emo

Well i was feeling kinda emo.
Mainly cuz of school still cuz even though ive been in for 9 weeks i still dont feel like im fitting in well.
Like its hard to enter conversations with ppl and since im so shy i have a hard time being all crazy like i used to be with all my old friends cuz even though these new ppl are crazy and fun like that i feel like if i act that way ill be looked at like an idiot...
Cuz ive been shot down a couple times this year while trying to start a conversation with sumone....

Im feeling kinda better today, cuz Hiei(not really we call her that) came to my school today.X3 she has a 4 day weekend and she got permission to walk around with Boots(not her real name) today.X3
I only met her once but shes a lot of fun and it was a little easier speaking up...but just a little.^^'
Cuz im not really myself untill ive known sumone for a long time.^^'
But it was great.X3
We had this group hug during lab and like half of us fell over.XD

I think my good days are when i get to actually talk to ppl and it goes well....

Yesterday i really wanted to go back to my home school but i think ill be able to manage.X3

Oh and guess what...my lab teacher says ill always be better at drawing anime than realistic, and that if i dont try really hard i wont get better at realistic.^^' Cuz im made for anime?XD
Sounds nice but if i dont get better at realism ill fail. ._. ....not good.T^T
At least my photoshop is getting better.T^T
He said he liked my murging project so that made me feel a little better.X3

Sumthing else that made me feel like crap yesterday. ._. i was a little messy with my pencil shavings and they called me back at the end of the day to sweep it up.T^T and the teacher made it sound like i was being such a burden to her.T^T
I hate it when ppl just go on and on about something. tell me wat to do and be on ur way, talking about it really makes it worse.-_-'

Srry for the rant, cuz i tell ppl to stop being emo but i dont think im being that bad do you?^^'

Rai-chan

Stressed.@[email protected]....

Man i have like so much stuff to get done for school.T^T
lets see....
Stipiling project for art (making tones with little dots and and ink pen.DX)
I have to read like 11 chapters in a crappy book tonight, thats about 80 pages.@.@ i shouldnt have pushed it off till now cuz i have to have had it read by tomorrow.T.T i dont think anyone else is even reading the book...but i need to pass this class!DX
Then i have this huge project where i have to write summarys and questinos for each episode in the book.T.T im almost done with that but i hate doing it and im not sure when its due....

Im sure by tomorrow ill mean fine with all that though.X3

Rai-chan

Um..

Ok..about my costume...i didnt actually make it yet.^^'
I know i bought everything on sunday and all but i really wasnt able to find time.
I was either hauling wood up a hill this weekend or trying to actually get some drawing in.^^'
And today i have to do homework.
Man i really need to prioritise my work better.

So i am really sorry about the let down.
But i will get it done!
I always do.^^

Rai-chan

100 Subscribers!!!!

Yay!!
I cant believe i am finally here!
100...so much happyness.X3
Thanks so much to all the ppl who are subscribed to me!^^
It means a lot.^^
Now i just hope i wont loose any.X3
must keep 100!
I have to keep these ppl happy!!^^

Again thanks so much!^^

Rai-chan

Socks!

I went out with my friend Dawn today.^^
It was fun. I like never leave my house so getting out was great.XD
She made so many illegal moves on the rode.XD She has this really little car...like really little and that car easily tips.X3 It was freaky sometimes.^^
First we went to the library...boo right? not really they had a lot of anime and manga there.<3
Now I have to read
Wish
Happy Hussle High
and
Haunted House.X3

then we went to subway and had a foot long.XD

Then we went to several halloween stores looking for rainbow socks.<3
And i found them!!
Yay for colors!!!
Now my sss costume can be complete!<3

Talking with dawn is fun.^^

Rai-chan