Begging to go back to Summer

Man i have so much work to get done that its giving me a huge headache.@.@
lets see my list of things this time.

Commenting on 3 sites, with dial up.DX
3 contest prizes
Getting out pages of my comic as fast as i can.DX
and the biggest thing. Homework!!!DX

Kill me!
I miss summer! y couldnt i have had all this art to do over the summer or the motivation to do it?
This sucks.@.@
I have hardly anytime to get anything done.T.T

Rai-chan

I give!

After working pretty much all weekend on my stuff i have offically calmed down from friday, and this is the conclusion i came to.
'I give up'
Alright i know that sounds really bad but if i keep thinking about making friends are despritly trying and failing im going to drive myself insane. thinking about those things make me depressed and really stressed out so for now im just going to take it easy and work on my comics....
crap i have hmwk i have to get done...crap...

I commented a lot this weekend too...wow.Oo but only on the things that the comments went through and sumtimes i just left it as the half comment cuz all the important things were still there...

Rai-chan

Lonely

Im feeling very depressed right now.
When i went to the CTC i left all my friends behind and i dont make friends very easily at all, it takes a lot of time for me to get used to sum one...even if sumone starts to talk to me im limited on what i can say cuz im afraid that ill say sumthing stupid.
I know its only the end of the first week but everyone already seems to be in their little friend groups and im left all by myself....
ppl tell me to suck it up and just try to talk to ppl but its not that easy for me....i know its silly but im just too afraid too....
makes me wanna puke, thinking that i might not make any really good friends this year cuz im shy, man im such a wuss...

Rai-chan

Pic of Me!

Yeah the color is no longer deep purple.T.T but i think the light of the camera makes it more pink than it really is.^^'
Alright on another note. I can pretty much not comment anymore now. even at school my comments are cut off and i cant update to firefox, it messes up my comp, ill post stuff, but if you want me to comment start posting on DA! Ppl who have DAs!!!!I wanna look at ur stuff and comment! well i can still look...(i wonder if this will go through....)

First Day of School

Schedule:
LAB-Graphic Commercial Art(1,2,3,4)
English 3(5)
Computer Application(Semester1,6)
Money Management(Semester2,6)
Applied Physics(7)
Advanced Math(8)

Alright lets see
Got up at 6
left the house at 6:45
Waited for the bus at 7 it came at like 7;15
Sat next to a kinda sorta friend on the bus ride.
Nervous about class
In class and freaked out, not sure if i was supossed to be there, over active seniors made it worse.
Felt like a noob all day and ended up having to sit neck to sum kinda preepy ppl.
Then while i was leaving lunch i saw the girl i saw at the open house.
Wanted to talk to her but scared as hell but i needed to make friends are id be totally skrewed if i didnt.
When i walked up to her all i could spit out was 'could you look at my art' she said sure. Then her friends (i think they were her friends) They said they liked my art too. Then i asked to look at anothers girls art and i found out she was the manga artist for Miss Anthropy! A Yuu Yuu Hakusho fanmanga.! Happy Day!
Lunch Ended
Going to 7th period, i was feeling good but i got lost trying to find my class and i was late.><
(i apalogise for not remembering any names, i notice ppl mumble and i cant remember! Im srry)
Then a girl who likes anime started talking to be at the end of 7th period, and a guy tells me he likes anime to.
Late for last period but feeling pretty good so i didnt care.
After school let out i found my friend from last year! yay!
Then on the bus ride home i finally got into my laptop!Yay!

Then i started talking to my potential friends on DA.X3

Plz read this and remind me of ur names! Im srry i dont remember!T.T

Rai-chan