This post is full of grammar issues!
I'm seriously not ready for college yet, I kind of have that 'I'm going to throw up feeling' right now.
Man, if things don't work themselves out soon college life is going to be balls...major balls. The details on why it could possibly be major ass suckage isn't for me to share with everyone on the internet.
First off, I did something...not something horrid or anything but I did it with not so nice intentions because I was annoyed. I didn't want to start a war or anything.
THE SITUATION I AM IN IS ALL MY FAULT!!!
I really shouldn't have, I just didn't think it was going explode and be a big issue, after all, we are supposed to be friends right?
But in the end it wasn't right for me to put everyone in that situation that we are in now...so I'm sorry...
Yeah, I should actually tell my...I think we are friends that I'm sorry for forcing them in this situation...but really I'm not...or am I?
Idk!
I just know that in the real world you are going to have to live and put up with people you don't like or people that annoy you. You can't just avoid problems like they don't exist and lie about them or make them out to be bigger than they are.
Of course since I'm not a figure of great knowledge and purity I have no right to judge people on the way they are even though I have my own opinions. I am no better, I'm pretty much worse right now.
Even after the problem started I didn't think it would be that bad so I didn't do anything to change it. After all...they are my friends and they are my friends because I like them. I thought this could be a lot of fun!
Point your fingers at me if you want, go a head...but just don't dunk Astro in the toilet! T.T
I will be on my best behavior during college, I will do my best to be kind and friendly just like I always had planned. If my friends plan a war I'm going to stay out of it.
I'm not going to get mad or violent, I'm just going to live with what I've done.
Because I'm in the wrong. If they hate me...well the dorm is split into 2 rooms, we never have to talk to each other ever if that is what they want.
I just want us to be honest with each other...maybe I should start...geez I'm going to throw up.
I'm not an up front person. I don't like being yelled at so I tend to avoid confrontation...maybe I should start listening to my own head before I do things out of spite...
I want everyone to know right now that it takes a lot before I can actually say I hate someone or that they annoy me.
And I don't know how to give up on people or let things slide. Which is probably the problem.
I mean it wasn't even me who was being knocked in the first place, but it still offended me.
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.........................................yeah I should be curbed stomped.
This is why I try to stay away from people! I always fuck it up!
