Well i was feeling kinda emo.
Mainly cuz of school still cuz even though ive been in for 9 weeks i still dont feel like im fitting in well.
Like its hard to enter conversations with ppl and since im so shy i have a hard time being all crazy like i used to be with all my old friends cuz even though these new ppl are crazy and fun like that i feel like if i act that way ill be looked at like an idiot...
Cuz ive been shot down a couple times this year while trying to start a conversation with sumone....
Im feeling kinda better today, cuz Hiei(not really we call her that) came to my school today.X3 she has a 4 day weekend and she got permission to walk around with Boots(not her real name) today.X3
I only met her once but shes a lot of fun and it was a little easier speaking up...but just a little.^^'
Cuz im not really myself untill ive known sumone for a long time.^^'
But it was great.X3
We had this group hug during lab and like half of us fell over.XD
I think my good days are when i get to actually talk to ppl and it goes well....
Yesterday i really wanted to go back to my home school but i think ill be able to manage.X3
Oh and guess what...my lab teacher says ill always be better at drawing anime than realistic, and that if i dont try really hard i wont get better at realistic.^^' Cuz im made for anime?XD
Sounds nice but if i dont get better at realism ill fail. ._. ....not good.T^T
At least my photoshop is getting better.T^T
He said he liked my murging project so that made me feel a little better.X3
Sumthing else that made me feel like crap yesterday. ._. i was a little messy with my pencil shavings and they called me back at the end of the day to sweep it up.T^T and the teacher made it sound like i was being such a burden to her.T^T
I hate it when ppl just go on and on about something. tell me wat to do and be on ur way, talking about it really makes it worse.-_-'
Srry for the rant, cuz i tell ppl to stop being emo but i dont think im being that bad do you?^^'
Rai-chan
