This is it guys. Today is the last day of school for me...and I'm not as happy as I thought i would be....
Oh and before I go into some emo post, I do have some good news!
Now that Beware of Fangirls is finished i can start working on my other comics again!!
The first thing i am going to finish up is The SSS^^ my goal is to end if before the summer is over!!
Somone give me a reason to keep this deadline!!!XD
The only problem is that i forgot the little details in the story because i havent worked on it in a while...I'm so stupid! I need to start writing things down!!!DX
=3 though i almost have one page doneXD...ok almost inked completly is the key wordX3
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Emo Refelction time!
I think im pretty depressed by the end of the school year because looking back it seems i havent made any progress in my life at all....
Art the most, I know i have gotten a little better and stuff but its not by much and im still so much farther down on the pole than all of my friends in the rest of the class.
My realistic art makes me twitch and my designs could probably make people wanna throw up and the only thing im kinda good at which is anime is something no one gives a damn about!!
NO ONE GIVES A DAMN ABOUT THAT MANGA STYLE!!!
And even if people did give a damn about it, it doesnt even matter cuz im not even that good at it and my friends are so much better at it.
Even though ive been drawing forever and trying my best my teacher continues to tell me to put effort into my art even when i do put effort into it....
No one in the art field of teachers or anything has ever told me 'wow that looks great' or 'amazing job' ever, the never even give my stuff a second look...even in my lower art classes there was always someone who was so much better than me, so....yeah....
And another thing i realised is that my social life really hasnt impoved that much either.
I have friends yes....but...
the thing is, even if you have a million things in common with peoplem it doesnt matter if you lack just one thing.
And that is pretty much how i am.
I lack one thing and i have absolutly nothing to talk about with them, well thats not true, i have things to talk about its just that theyd rather be talking about something else and when they all get together they talk about the one thing i have no way of talking about them with, so i just end up standing there awkwardly because i have nothing to contribute even though i really really want to.
So most of the time i end up sitting in a corner, its not that i want to sit in a corner by myself working its just that i have nothing better to do and its worse to stand there....
So maybe the summer is a little bit of relief....
