my feelings for you love

Darling to be completly broken insde

is the only thing you left me with

and to look deep into my memory to find the broken memory of you and us

it fills me with such anger and hatred towards you love

darling i may never see you again

but to see you picture

makes me want to scream and punch out windows

darling, i may have said i still love you

but in all truth love...i despise you

suicide dreamer

holding back, trying not to reach for any thing that could hurt me

i saw her in my dreams

but i know all she will do is hurt me

but yet i love her

why?

why does she haunt me, my dreams, my heart?

i feel like i need to find her

im always in a empty and broken search for something i know isnt there

but i still search for her

why?

i can hear her screaming in pain

i need to help her

but i cant find her except in my dreams

its tearing me apart

why?

i cant stand it

its driving me crazy

i need to escape

but i cant figure out how

why?

i will escape this pain

i dream of death

i dream of pain

i dream of her pushing me more towards suicide

why?

i guess thats what im destined for

i cant stand her screaming any more

i used to call out for her

but she never answered

why?

she will never torture me again

i have been a suicide dreamer

i will escape her and my dreams

is she really pushing me towards suicide

why?

no more questions

i will bring my dreams to life

the suicide dreamer finally embraces her dreams

a hidden place, a gunshot, and fall off a bridge

why?

she hated the torture

and now she wont feel pain anymore

she cant dream of that girl or her screaming

that girl did push her into suicide

and now no one will ever find her or know what happened

why?

because that girl loved her to and wanted them to be together

so she pushed her into suicide

by torturing her

and now both of thier wishes are granted she has me and i escaped all the pain

today's random post...i hope haine-chan doesnt kill me

sitting here next to my bff haine-chan and we are both on the otaku...sending messages back and forth like retards cause we are to lazy to talk...lolz...waiting for hopefully uryu to get here...yay just figured out how to post images on worlds thanx to haine...thanx all the ppl who have sent me messages requesting to be friends...if you have a tagged my name on there is...well if this computer would ever load...ugh hold on my name on there is I♥BULLET im not sure if that would work but here is my email for it [email protected] haine chan is being mean she is gonan make rude comments on this one im scared...i need the magic fairy of anti-haine to protect me..hahaha haine chan beat that...remember the male fairy at the rennasance festival..oh btw ppl NEVER MAKE FUN OF A MALE FAIRY...EVER
haine is growing more and more impatient cause i wont post it yet its so funny
hmm what else should i type now...im not sure but i also have a bestuff, a facebook, a vampirefreaks, and other thing si cant think of right now well i guess ill post this before haine kills me and o wouldnt put it past her either she has already tried...

today's random post...i hope haine-chan doesnt kill me

sitting here next to my bff haine-chan and we are both on the otaku...sending messages back and forth like retards cause we are to lazy to talk...lolz...waiting for hopefully uryu to get here...yay just figured out how to post images on worlds thanx to haine...thanx all the ppl who have sent me messages requesting to be friends...if you have a tagged my name on there is...well if this computer would ever load...ugh hold on my name on there is I♥BULLET om not sure if that would work but here is my email for it [email protected] haine chan is being mean she is gonan make rude comments on this one im scared...i need the magic fairy of anti-haine to protect me..hahaha haine chan beat that...remember the male fairy at the rennasance festival..oh btw ppl NEVER MAKE FUN OF A MALE FAIRY...EVER
haien is growing more and more impatient cause i wont post it yet its so funny
hmm what else should i type now...im not sure but i also have a bestuff, a facebook, a vampirefreaks, and other thing si cant think of right now well i guess ill post this before haine kills me and o wouldnt put it past her either she has already tried...

next random post

listeing to music talking on tagged...missed my friend tyler alot last night...
trying to get more ppl on here...i wish ppl would turn on their cell phone so i could talk to them CODY!!!!...cant wait for 2-morow get to see some of my anime clan members...had to explain what anime is to some one you know how hard that is if they have nevr seen it before... i just sent them a like to episode 1 of naruto...mom is picking me up around 3 YAY and i get to call tyler at 6 ugh i dont wanna wait!!! i like super really need to straighten my hair...i think its my day to do dishes i will brb i gtg check...nope its not my day...yay well i guess thats all for my random post..going to try to call ppl again
byeez!!