to be hated is to be loved

not by one person

but by many

to be with the world

or against it

nothing is beautiful

but nothing is perfect

people see the beauty of the things they find perfect

what they do not see is the imperfection of that beauty

the life of someone who is begging to be saved

The life of someone who looks delighted and carefree

but is begging for a way out a way to live life

may this life be of happiness

but not many things can be happy

there are those...who live life in pain

The pain that showed on this thorn
the pain it gave me
I see the darkness in this pain
the relief of being in pain

To whom i will turn
no one really cares
I still hear her voice
in my head
while nightmares crawl upon this lonley bed

As she appears in my mind
as she seems to come without a care
she left me words of caring
and after left me words of betrayal
the thoughts of her flow day and day
night and night

Betrayal, betrayal I can't go back now
you've trapped me in a prison i can't escape
I'm sitting here thinking of you
while you're out screwing another man
why did you leave me
I really don't know

What did i do to deserve this
why treat me as i was the one at fault
what was the reason
what is the reason
For you to betray me and leave me
as i wander into the abyss
i find nothing but pain
wander into the darkness
with nothing but thorns tearing at me

Deeper and deeper my heart is cut
Because I can't just let go
So I grab my gun and head for the door
Everyone is asleep
not even the baby wakes up
as I slip out the door
and into my truck

So as i drive into the night
I think and think
wander about in my thoughts
theres no escape
no turning back
So what i have planned now
shall be the end of these thoughts
the end of you
the end of what we had
and i can finally be free of thee

As I drive I start to feel rage
its kindling inside like a building flame
and soon grows making me insane
I am soon swerving
and starting to drift
my mind wanders about all the things
that could have been
and all the things that could be what if
I see his house, the one that stole you from me

The rage comes
the rage flows
So much come to mind
In a part of my heart
I want to get you back for all you done
What is stopping me now
The rage wants me to get you
my anger is growing more and more
The thoughts of you continue to come to me

I am drowning, drowning, drowning
as a tear comes from my eye
something i swore
I'd never do
I get out of the truck and walk to the door
with my gun in hand
I knock once

I wait
Knock again
What am i doing
Knock again
I hear footsteps
I hear a voice not to far from the door
I hold up my gun and aim it

To what I thought he answered the door
but as the knob turned I was to angry to think
"click" went the trigger
the door opened
I saw your face
your eyes starred into mine
as you hit the cold floor

I stare at you hand at a shake
I can hear nothing
not even caring for who is screaming
A small smile began to grow on my face
as i began to laugh and stare up at the sky
I finally did it
but tears began to fill my eyes
I did it
A smirk began to fill my face as i look down to you.

twelve months later
Im here
sitting on death row
still happy I got to see your eyes filled with so much pain
"Any last words?"
comes from the wardens mouth
Looking with such horror from all the people of her family

I looked to them
to the other people present
and to the warden
I smiled and laughed
I did what i did
to rid myself of a thorn
that thorn was a rose
that was bright red
then it began to change to a darker color
the color black
this rose began to bring me pain

Not that they would care
but I decided to tell them any ways
about this beatiful rose
that brought me pain I couldn't handle
I took her life
to get revenge
"May your soul rest in piece"
comes the voice of the priest
as my whole becomes nothing more
than a hurtling death
but I
am completley satisfied