I'm more or less interested in anything dealing with Itachi but I get interested easily with any manga/anime
I'm not much to talk about an amateur artist trying to put up art for people to see as well as fan art. I hope you like this world I'm probably just do journal entries and compare things in life with some in anime/manga
- Created By Zuzu Uchiha
Unbreakable Habit
Yes...
A habit I thought I could lose...
Hitting walls.
MAking myself bleed.
The sight of my pain...
I need it.
I tried to end this.
But I can't.
I need it.
With all the hate given to me by others.
The words said to me "Go Die"
Makes me think...
Die...
Pain...
What do you really want me to do?
even better the person who told me to go die...
I jumped to a lake close by and smiled...
You want me to die...I can jump now...here and drown.
He looked at me crazy and said you're insane
I looked to him and said "You wanted me to die...now im insane for wanting to do it?"
A habit...
Letting myself hurt....
Letting myself feel the pain of others.
The habit of doing pain towards myself...
The habit of seeing my blood run down my own hands...
The sight...
Tears...
Not of pain..
But of sadness...
My Habit I can never break
No matter what.
Or how.
this habit is mine to take...
If I kill this habit...
If I end this habit
Will I find my peace..
The thing I want most.
Peace of mind.
Not hating myself.
Not hating the fact I am weak at heart.
The fact I care to much to where I would actually die....
My habit...can break me...instead of me breaking it....
The Puzzled Mind
Ever had that thought...
You thought one thing....
And next thing you know...
Everything you thought to be true...
Was a lie?
That you thinking doing something would go good
Instead it came out bad?
Every became more and more puzzled after that?
So many things can do this to us.
The mind takes in whatever it thinks...
It can have the right ideas and the wrong ideas.
Do you know if your mind is puzzled?
Do you think you know what is to be done?
Or do you know for sure that what you're about to do is right at all?
things happen.
Most happen because you let them happen.
Its us who causes pain to ourselves and others.
Is this a lie?
To me...its not.
Puzzling?
Shouldn't be.
To have things puzzle the mind mean it just shocked...confused maybe....
Things tend to fill our minds.
Make us wonder.
Don't make them puzzle your mind for to long.
You may never know...
If it can break you.
Back with the Forgotten things....
So this is it....
Where I leave all the things.
The Things I wish to forget...
The things I have done wrong.
The things I regret the most.
The deepest,darkest part, of my heart and mind....
How did I..
Why did I...
I remember....
So this is where it all lies...
My anger.
My frustrations.
All of them huddled in the darkest parts of my mind and heart....
Somehow I want to forget.
I want to not be here.
But here I am.
Again in the darkness.
So this is it...
The things I think...
The things I thought...
The darkest part....
The darkest.....
So many things...
The problems.
The issues....
The anger...
The words...
The simple things...
The hard things....
All found here......
In the deepest... darkest part of my heart and mind.
So this is where...
This is where I might fall.
Do I want to give up now?
Here?
.....No.
So why am I here?
Right....I let myself come.
I led myself here.
To be with it.
To be with all the things I want to forget...
Maybe it best to let this stuff out...
To not hold it all in.
The more I hold this in...
The anger, pain, frustrations, all of it...
Im a fall. And I will break.
I might as well stay.
Be with the forgotten things.
Maybe I can forget...about me.
The me before.
The me now.
The me that hated.
And the me that cares.....
Back with the Forgotten things.......
Believing what you hear...or Know...?
Just a thought. No one in general. Trust me random shiz come to my mind... No one I seriously getting on this NO ONE get defensive here, it nothing on anyone just a thought. Im already sick, and stressing just know this is just a thought... that came to me and its something that I need to let out since I been getting lied to in my face so many times over and over and over again....
the thoughts running in my mind... do I really know you?
The actual thoughts in my mind... Do they Know you?
Do they know you better than I do?
Do I know you better than they do?
Who is to say you haven't been lying to me from the start.
I said hi, you said hi
We became friends....or that is what I thought.
We had things in common
I liked what you had
And you liked what I had...or did you?
You introduced me to friends.
I did the same for you.
We all became friends...right? or Wrong.
What is it with this...
Knowing what you see from that person.
And then Hearing what someone else has to say.
Knowing that person in reality hates you.
Knowing that person wants nothing with you.
Wants nothing to know about you.
Am I that kind of person too?
To not want to know someone?
Not care for someone.
No...I'm not.
Even if I tried...I can't...seem to hate someone.
Hold a grudge on anyone.
You done it me...you hated me and yet you kept me around....
You and your friends...or should I say the people who also dislike you as much as you dislike them.
Am I wrong to say that to you?
I'm being honest....
I am someone who got hurt,
but I can always make that hurt come back right at you.
Its not like me to do that, but if you get me to that level...I shall and will be uncaring
Soon. Never later. Just soon, I will apologize. I will take it all back. And ask you to forgive me.
Why? I dunno. I do this when I think I done wrong. Or even when I know I did nothing wrong.
To hear what I hear...about you... should I listen.
To see what I see about you. Should I know?
Believing what I hear.... no.
Believing what I see... not so sure on that either.
What is there to believe? Well the facts. I want to know...what I already know...
If you are kind to me...then you are good in my mind...
but if I hear someone say you are rude to them... all I can say is... I should ask...right?
Or wrong?
You say you are this and this. And someone who is closer to you who known you for years tells me other wise. I should believe nothing then. Except to me... I would still be by your side... and never turn away. Even to those who have gone against me. Said the wrong things about me. Made people hate me.... I don't hate you. Nor will I hold this against you. I still will protect you. I will go on.
Believing what I know...than what I hear.....
