Just a thought. No one in general. Trust me random shiz come to my mind... No one I seriously getting on this NO ONE get defensive here, it nothing on anyone just a thought. Im already sick, and stressing just know this is just a thought... that came to me and its something that I need to let out since I been getting lied to in my face so many times over and over and over again....
the thoughts running in my mind... do I really know you?
The actual thoughts in my mind... Do they Know you?
Do they know you better than I do?
Do I know you better than they do?
Who is to say you haven't been lying to me from the start.
I said hi, you said hi
We became friends....or that is what I thought.
We had things in common
I liked what you had
And you liked what I had...or did you?
You introduced me to friends.
I did the same for you.
We all became friends...right? or Wrong.
What is it with this...
Knowing what you see from that person.
And then Hearing what someone else has to say.
Knowing that person in reality hates you.
Knowing that person wants nothing with you.
Wants nothing to know about you.
Am I that kind of person too?
To not want to know someone?
Not care for someone.
No...I'm not.
Even if I tried...I can't...seem to hate someone.
Hold a grudge on anyone.
You done it me...you hated me and yet you kept me around....
You and your friends...or should I say the people who also dislike you as much as you dislike them.
Am I wrong to say that to you?
I'm being honest....
I am someone who got hurt,
but I can always make that hurt come back right at you.
Its not like me to do that, but if you get me to that level...I shall and will be uncaring
Soon. Never later. Just soon, I will apologize. I will take it all back. And ask you to forgive me.
Why? I dunno. I do this when I think I done wrong. Or even when I know I did nothing wrong.
To hear what I hear...about you... should I listen.
To see what I see about you. Should I know?
Believing what I hear.... no.
Believing what I see... not so sure on that either.
What is there to believe? Well the facts. I want to know...what I already know...
If you are kind to me...then you are good in my mind...
but if I hear someone say you are rude to them... all I can say is... I should ask...right?
Or wrong?
You say you are this and this. And someone who is closer to you who known you for years tells me other wise. I should believe nothing then. Except to me... I would still be by your side... and never turn away. Even to those who have gone against me. Said the wrong things about me. Made people hate me.... I don't hate you. Nor will I hold this against you. I still will protect you. I will go on.
Believing what I know...than what I hear.....
