random shit here. no its not important just something that came to mind in the past week... needed to write it

Sometimes I wonder why i even bother....
Somehow its getting worse to try and say your friends....
Your wanting to trust
Somehow... its hard to get any trust anymore
What do you do?
I think give em space.
But then... they might think other wise of it as ignoring...
Whats worse
You can't get their trust.
You can't get your own parents trust.
You know you done wrong before.
So when its been a while a long whiles since you did something to make em not trust you
You did all you can to get that trust again....
One gives it to you
The other just makes you want to rip something apart and throw away every little thing that says have trust have faith...
Whats the point then.
Might as well kill your thoughts and mind and let yourself be surrounded by the darkness you once let go of
the one that said to never have trust in anyone at all
Not friends
Not family.
Just you yourself...
And no one else.

Maybe its best to go back to those times.

Back into nothing
To the person people never saw
Never noticed
Never cared.
Again to the past
Not wanting to trust or be trusted.
Maybe... thats for the best.