I don't really want anyone to read this, but it's not like I can really stop you. I'm not a big fan of writing in diaries, so I don't own any, this is the only place I could think of writing on.

*curls up into a ball* I can't take it anymore. I'm always sick, and it always hurts. Sometimes it gets so bad, I just want to give up, go to sleep and never wake up again. I've been to the doctors so many times, yet they have no clue what's wrong with me. They've poked me, and jabbed me with needles. I've had numerous tests, x-rays, ultrasounds, blood tests. But they still can't find anything wrong with me. I've been so emotional lately, that I just seem to start crying about the smallest things. My family's not much help at times like that. My mum yells at me to stop crying and my little brother laughs. I claw at my arms with my nails beacuse I get so upset. And I always feel like I want to rip someone's head off. To be truthful, and I know this is totaly stupid and moronic, I've even contemplated suicide. But you know what gets me through this all? The one thought that keeps me strong? If I die, I wont be able to go on theO anymore, and talk to all my awesome friends. I realise I might need help, but I just can't bring myself to talk to anyone about this.

*sighs* If you did end up reading that, forgive me. I went totaly emo for a second. But I thought since no one seems to check this world anyway, there might be one, two people who read this tops. Don't worry, because as long as I have my otaku family. I'll always be able to pull through!