yeup.. because of my crazy stinking dreams that i've been having lately.. ive gotten to be afraid of the dark again... last week and then again today=TERRIBLE dreams :T
i dunno why even, it's just like, my own personal worst nightmares coming out into my dreams, like last week my dream wasnt too bad, but some of the stuff in it made me want to full on cry, and then today's..... i woke up with the worst feeling in my stomach and my heart racing... and lets just say, if anyone gets the stupid idea to control evil, demonic spirits, im gonna kick their butt because it's the DUMBEST thing that someone could do. honestly i have no idea where my subconcious came up with demonic spirit displays, ive never used one of those board things (i wont ever either, especially now). but over all... creepy... people without faces, people disappearing out of no where... its like paramormal activity or something... only ive NEVER SEEN THOSE MOVIES EITHER. ive always been a little afraid of the dark, well it's natural, i cant see well in the dark, but i was finally getting better at controling those impulses and being able to yenno, go into the basement without having the whole upstairs lit up (the light switch is down the steps just inside the basement.... creepy..) but now.. i cant even go into the bathroom DIRECTLY next to my room without leaving my door open so light floods into the hall, and now, i cant fall asleep, and i couldnt even consider it until i turned my tv back on so there was atleast a little light. i am definitely buying a dream catcher next chance i get... i dont think that they can nesicarilly completely block bad dreams, but i think that they can atleast help some of the terribleness.
i swear i jump at EVERYTHING and it feels like im gonna freak any second. this is one of those times that i wish i had a sibling that lived with me, because atleast then i could go jump in their bed or drag them to my room... i just wish i could go to leahs from friday till the end of thanksgiving break, then atleast i could get some peace.. but im doubting thats gonna happen now :T, well, maybe atleast i can go down the day after thanksgiving or something..