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fanfic 41
aug 19th
ren: hmm usually he calls or visits but neither have happened -focuses mind- [i sense..... sadness...] [.....deep overflowing sadness.....]
~softly ren knocks on the door to his parents house~
Mr. Mitsuo-san: yes?
ren: hello i'm ren is Hitsugi-kun here?
Mr. Mitsuo-san: yes there has been a death in the family...
ren: [i see so that why...] you have my deepest and most sincere sympathy.
Mr. Mitsuo-san: thank you very much.
Mrs. Mitsuo-san: !
ren: hello i'm ren a friend of your son.
Mrs. Mitsuo-san: -starts to make tea-
ren: please allow me to make tea, there is enough on your minds as is.
Mrs. Mitsuo-san:.......... -pulls him aside- honey you come here too...... so who is she?
Hitsugi-kun: umm...... -turns pink-
Mrs. Mitsuo-san: ahhhh..... i see.
Mr. Mitsuo-san: you chose well.
Mrs. Mitsuo-san: so have you done any you-know-what yet?
Hitsugi-kun: -blush deep red- [MOM!! please!!!!]
Mr. Mitsuo-san: Ren-san how many times so far?
ren: oh you don't have to call me -san. and i'd say 4!
Hitsugi-kun: ren!!!
ren: -lights 3 incense sticks- -kneels down and silently prays- you know.... Hitsugi-kun i had a hard time letting my feelings out...... at the very least
it was something shameful, at most a burden to those around me. but with each incident where i did you helped me feel like it wasn't a bad thing;
like it was ok to show them, because i am human. now it's much easier to do.....
Hitsugi-kun: did you sense that i needed you?
ren: of course i came by instinct.
~starts singing to sympathia~
♫[kono mama misasete ano yume no tsudzuki wo
kesenai kizuato wo kioku wo kakikeshite
kaze ga tomaru arashi no umi ga shindeyuku
yoru ga owaru asahi wa tsuyoku azayaka ni
kagayaku hikari no mukou de boku wo mite te wo furu
anata no ato wo oikake
ude wo tsukamikaketa sono shunkan
kieteshimau
kono mama misasete ano yume no tsudzuki wo
kesenai kizuato wo kioku wo kakikeshite
hakari ni kaketa futatsu erabu kotoba to omoi
sore tomo mada kidzukanai ai ga aru?
uso mo shinjitsu mo nai soshite sei mo shi mo nai
sekai ni akogarete
boku wa yume wo miteitan da ne
yami wo enji nagara
ren -hugs him-
tada kizutsuketeta
hakanai yume ni oboreteita ne
hito de iru koto sae wasuresaseru ai ga soko ni itta
anata to itami ga kieteita
kono karada atokata mo naku
koroshitekure hai ni kaete
towa wo motometa keredo
anata no te de
kono mama misasete ano yume no tsudzuki wo
kesenai kizuato wo subete wo kakikeshite
omoi maku to me wo tojireba
anata dake de shikai wa fusagarete
afuredasu omoi daite
kono mama mou nemurasete]♪
Hitsugi-kun: -cries-
ren: feel better?
Hitsugi-kun: much.
~there was a live soon after he still seemed sad so ren in attendence along with Ai-chan Bonez anglsu and emz decided to change that~
Sakito-san: huh why are people making an opening?
Niya-san: whoa!! is that a rocket launcher?!
ren:..............-aims it high- -fires off 3 missiles-
-they explode above the stage- countless white rose petals slowly fall-
Hitsugi-kun: ren.... ehh??
~a paper airplane flew over~
~on it it said: your welcome~
Hitsugi-kun: -was trying hard not to cry but a tear or two fell nevertheless-
~a outpour of support from the fans served to cheer Hitsugi-kun up~
~the rest of the live was a blast!~
Hitsugi-kun: you planned this huh?
ren :
♫ It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all ♪
~hugs♥~
translation for Sympathia
Being stared at like this, the dreams continuation
Erases the memories, the scars I can't get rid of
The wind stops The stormy sea is dying
The night ends The morning sun is so clear
On the other side of this glittering lake, you're watching me waving your hand
I chase after you
And in the moment I grab your arm
You disappear
Being stared at like this, the dreams continuation
Erases the memories, the scars I can't get rid of
The weighed out two selected words and thoughts
Or is still unnoticed love there?
Without lies and reality without life an death
I long for a world like this
I dreamed, right?
While I performed the darkness
I just hurt you
I drowned in the faint dream, right?
Being with people, the forgotten love, both were there
The pain disappeared with you
This body, without any trace
Kill me, turn me into ashes
I longed for eternity but
At your hand
Being stared at like this, the dreams continuation
Erases the memories, the scars I can't get rid of
If I close my eyes and the heavy curtain
Only you hinder my sight
I keep those overflowing thoughts in my heart
Just put me to sleep like this
oh don't mind this post too much...
fanfic plotting in progress
on the 19th Hitsugi-san's paternal grandmother passed suddenly........
.........Alison Krauss when you say nothing at all..........
........................................... ok i think i have the base for a chapter i'll type when i get home
~ren
Daddy ... It hurts
Dear God... I'm still crying...
My name is Chris,
I am three,
My eyes are swollen..
I cannot see.
I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made,
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy,
Would still want to hug me.
I can't do a wrong,
I can't speak at all,
Or else I'm locked up,
All day long.
When I'm awake,
I'm all alone,
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come home,
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll just get,
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car,
My daddy is back,
From Charlie's bar
I hear him curse,
My name is called,
I press myself,
Against the wall.
I try to hide,
From his evil eyes,
I'm so afraid now,
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping,
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault,
He suffers at work.
He slaps and hits me,
And yells at me more,
I finally get free,
And run to the door.
He's already locked it,
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me,
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor,
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues,
With more bad words spoken.
'I'm sorry!', I scream,
But it's now much to late,
His face has been twisted,
Into a unimaginable shape.
The hurt and the pain,
Again and again,
Oh please God,
have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops,
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless,
Sprawled on the floor.
My name is Chris,
I am three,
Tonight my daddy,
Murdered me.
And you can help,
Sickens me to the soul,
If you read this,
And don't pass it on
I pray for your forgiveness,
You would have to be,
One heartless person,
Not to be affected,
By this Poem.
And because you ARE affected,
Do something about it!
So all I ask you to do,
Is pass this on!
IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE!
Post this as 'Daddy ... It hurts'
for a better idea just watch the video for Alyssa Lies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpE73PvU9bk
(laugh)
