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fanfic 39
~ren went somewhere earlier this morning~
~after a few hours pass she returns~
ren: ah better.
Bonez: what's better?
Ai-chan: something seems different about you...
emz: but what?
anglsu: something's missing
ren: i got these scars lasered off.
emz: but your throat scars are still there?
Bonez: not enough money for them?
ren: no... see? -wallet is plenty full still-
anglsu: you couldn't stand the lasering anymore?
ren: no...... i had a lot done so a few more wasn't the issue.
Ai-chan: then what?
ren: i want to keep these as a reminder of how far i've come. as a reminder of the past and how the present is and how much better the future can be.
Ai-chan:........wow that's something to ponder....
ren: i did and after a moment i decided to keep these.
Bonez: well anyways your skin looks much better now. -smiles-
ren: thanks!
emz: really it does!
ren: -laughs-
anglsu: i never saw it like this before....
ren: aww stoooop!
anglsu: hehehe ren's embarassed!
ren: am not...
Bonez: are so!
ren am not!
Ai-chan: ah ha ha!! are SO!
ren: nnnnn am NOT!!
emz: are soooooo!!!♫
ren: nnnnn.... am not! am not!! AM NOT!!
Bonez: oh hi Hitsugi-san!
ren: -suddenly quiet-
Hitsugi-san: -laughs- oh don't stop now JUST because i was watching....
ren: w-watching!?
Hitsugi-san: so you got almost every scar lasered off huh? now you look very nice!
ren: -blush furiously-
Bonez: embarassed ren?
ren: n-no....
Bonez: abashed?
ren: nope not me..
Bonez: farce?
ren: who's faking?
Hitsugi-san: ok ok we know you're embarassed, your usual composure is gone, your farce isn't working.....
ren: b-boo what are they talking about?
Boo: -chirp chirp-
ren: BOO! ack you said THAT outloud!?!?!
No-no: -chirpchirpchirpchirp-
ren: ahh look at the time Hitsugi-san if we're going now is a good time.... -grabs his hand-
-at a restaraunt-
ren: thank god they don't understand budgie...
Hitsugi-san: aww we're just teasing
ren: so Hitsugi-san how long were you watching?
Hitsugi-san: i got there after you did, and i need to ask you something......
ren: yes?
Hitsugi-san: how long do you plan on calling me -san? we know each other well enough
ren: hmmm -kun?
Hitsugi-kun: i like that better.
ren: -thinking- Hitsuu-kun and nyakuuchi-chan might also be used♥
~after their meal off to the park~
Hitsugi-kun: why here?
ren: i feel ike playing. -heads to monkey bars-
-crouches down and jumps up-.... hmm play what though... -climbs up-
Hitsugi-kun: what are you doing?
ren: -hanging upside down- stretching. nnnnnn.... ahhh! -getting right side up then jumps down-
~from around the corner Yomi-san Ruka-san Sakito-san and Niya-san spot the two of them and watch~
ren: tag.
Hitsugi-kun: tag?
ren: you're it! -runs off-
Hitsugi-kun: hey!
[ren runs Hitsugi-kun chases]
Hitsugi-kun: can't you give me a chance?
ren: i'm not sexist, so sorry!
Hitsugi-kun: where did you go? ah-ha!
ren: [hanging upside down from a tree branch] whoa! [falls off]
[midair maneuver she lands on her feet]
[ren runs up the slide]
ren: ah ha ha!! nyakuuchi-chan can't catch me?
Hitsugi-kun: wait what? nyakuuchi-chan?
ren: nya [cats' meow] kuu [your cat] chi-chan [double dose of cute]
~meanwhile the others are falling to the ground laughing~
Hitsugi-kun: what the--? oh no......... it's going to stick...
~the two of them went to his house for the love makin part~
~we all know what happens behind the closed door♥~
Toshiya-san and Die-san paperchildren
they're laughing about a comic page Toichi drew of the band
fanfic 38 omake 2
emz: Hitsugi-san..... what happened?
anglsu: you shook, cried, yelled in agony was it that bad?
Hitsugi-san: how ren is today how she used to be, all are the result of the horrors i experianced.... there's a reason for everything.
Ai-chan & Bonez: tell us!
Hitsugi-san: -looks at ren-
ren: since they didn't see it directly it's fine for you to describe it......
Hitsugi-san:.............. she was beat by her parents frequently, even as an infant, she was unloved and unwanted. she was hated for merely existing, her parents fought constantly, so she was loved by animals and she loved them in return. the one person who was ever kind to her died of old age a dog she cared for was hit by a car and died right in front of her. assassins hunted her, she fought to survive a deadly encounter. she kills them but was injured badly. the taste and smell of blood are so constant she not only gets used to it but grows to like it too. in order to live she had to keep moving towards some place safe even if she was in agonizing pain. she nearly starved to death on more than one occasion, it was unbelievably painful
Bonez: so the reason she doesn't want to lose you is because she was never loved by another person.....
Hitsugi-san: yes.
Bonez: so she instead was loved by animals
Hitsugi-san: yeah and she loved them equally
Bonez: and that is why she comsumed her own blood? because it was such a frequent thing she grew accustomed to?
Hitsugi-san: yes, it tasted horrible!
Bonez: and even if she's badly hurt she still insists on moving...
Hitsugi-san: her only way to survive.
Bonez: she almost died of hunger....
Hitsugi-san: sometimes it'd be a week before she found anything..... now i understand how she can make it a mere few days.
emz Ai-chan anglsu: -speechless-
Hitsugi-san: once you know all of this it really makes you appreciate what you have....
Bonez emz Ai-chan anglsu: indeed.....
ren: despite all of that......... the Good Memories path has many more doors with memories of much deeper importance. they outweigh everything on the Bad Mamories path. despite what life has thrown my way the things i treasure the most are all right in this room at this very moment and all of you alone is more than enough to carry me through....
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Doctor: ok she can go home now
ren: i need a good meal good sleep good soak good love makin♥
Hitsugi-san: TLC?
ren: maybe but IOU.
Hitsugi-san: huh?
ren: my life was saved by you so IOU love makin♥
Hitsugi-san: ah!
see things are gonna get better
