there was an update
but well it really didn't help me feel any happier 
so good night
current song playing in mind: Reila or Dim Scene [something along those lines]
feels: lonely
ahh
not so many comments tonight
if i try to talk with someone and they don't listen or even ignore me
then i wonder
"should i just stop trying?"
"i feel like this is hopeless and i should just go back to silence"
i also tend to stop doing something if i'm disturbed
so if i was watching tv and the channel is changed
i lose interest and just go back to my room
well we haven't had tv here for months
i try to talk to people and i feel sometimes i'm ignored
so i might as well start trying less
*sigh*
i have NO friends offline
these days i get up eat get dressed and try to find something to do
whether i play a video game i already beat more than 4 times
or play solitare on my comp for the 18th time this week
mmm
being poor in this ecomomy
sucks
we hardly have money
i
am so
alone
so unless i find an update or new comment or something in 2 minutes
i'm login' off
in 3 minutes it'll be 1 am
