Follow-up to my last post. First of all, I'd like to thank everyone who left a comment or sent me a PM. I'm really touched that so many people are concerned about me. Right now, it feels like the people here on TheO are the only people I can talk to. Anyway, I am feeling a little better than I was yesterday. I woke up this morning feeling kind of anxious. I ended up worrying about some small stuff that I'm probably imagining or isn't that big a deal. I stopped as the morning went on though. Sometimes my overactive imagination is a bit of a double-edged sword. It helps me be creative, but it also causes me to think the worst sometimes.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life yesterday and today. I know there are some things about my life that could stand to change, and even some things that I'd like to change. Yet at the same time, I don't know how to change them and I'm also afraid to change. I think there's also a lot of issues going on in my life that I've been avoiding. Right now I sort of feel like a raw nerve. The slightest thing like a sad song on the radio could probably cause me to break down in tears. I actually have cried a little bit today, though not nearly as much as yesterday. I've also been unable to focus on my writing, even though I think working on writing would help. Maybe forget about what's going on if only for a little while. It's sort of a vicious paradox.

It's still the middle of the week, so there's still a lot than can happen. I don't know how this thing with the job I applied for will turn out, or how the other stuff will go down. Somehow I think that this is only the beginning of some things, but I'll be really happy when this week is over. Again, thanks to everyone who's been concerned. Talking has really helped me a lot.

~Darkarax